GuYs aRe cReaTed by GoD tO HuRt GaLs HeArT!!!!

Haiz

2011-08-13T01:30:00.001+08:00

Mcm malas aje die nk berbual dgn kite. Ok so it confirmed tat he buke wit black and Nora... Funny... Black can bring his gf but he cannot bring me... Haizzz... :(

Haiz

2011-08-12T22:16:00.001+08:00

Nari his off day. Die gi solat jumaat followed by shooting wit his fends. Then buke kat town dgn his kawan. Kadang2 aku pelik, die sanggup buke pause wit his frend and gf Dari aku. His kwn gi town to meet his gf and buke same2. Die pun ikut... Tk ajak aku... And if I bring up this subject die ckp aku
Tk bersyujur... I don mind go all the way there and meet him.. Haiz...

Aku perempuan. Setidak2 pun of cuz im jeles. Mesti la bile aku tgk colleague aku, their hubby and tunang fetc em back from work, my tiny hear longed for him to surprised me at D40 or paling tidak fetch la aku balik.. Is it too much to ask for.. His first off day he went jamming. Semalam and nari keluar dgn kwn... Then aku? I'm the last on his list.

Dugaan dgn dugaan... Alam pertunangan penuh dgn dugaan. :(

3rd dat

2011-08-10T16:44:00.001+08:00

Today is the 3rd day aku tetap bedegil tknk mengaku salah. Hati sakit sgt2.... Kepale aku batu ade duduk.....

Rindu tetap rindu la... Cume.... I keep on telling myself y must i miss him, y must i care for him if he don care about me.... Sobx sobx...

Aku sakit pun die tk peduli... :(

Gaduh lagi

2011-08-08T17:22:00.001+08:00

Baru ckp da lame tk gaduh.... Nari gaduh lagi... Lelaki hi hypocrite betul la. My post out is for public... Sape2 boleh terasa.

He still hav the cheek to say he never compare me to his friends gf/wife... That's lying...

Of cuz I still remember he compare me to nurul. Ckp nurul can understand yanny love for music. Y can't I be more understanding. He puji Nora.. He puji lily. The worst part is bile die compare aku dpn dorang. I admit I feel very small...

Arghhhhhh....

Cry

2011-04-04T23:39:00.001+08:00

It's sad when he ask "can we cry together"... I know he's strong but that coming from him is too shocking for me. I hope he'll be fine. I miss him but I know with this situation we have go be thrifty. Hearing his voice is enuff for me... I pray tat this will be temporary...

Sony to iphone

2011-04-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

At this point of time how I wish I'm using my Sony phone. I can listen to our conversation during happy times... Do u know that I miss u so much?

Call call call pleaseeee... Crossing my finger

2011-04-04T22:25:00.001+08:00

It would be nice if I receive a surprise call frm you. Will keep my phone nxt to me in case u call....

I have to be strong! I have to!

2011-04-04T21:17:00.001+08:00

I tried my best but nothing change... I know he's having problem at work. I'm having problem too... But I never vent my anger or frustration at him. The nxt few weeks won't be easy... I have to be strong. I know I can do this... Yes! I can!

???

2011-04-04T19:01:00.001+08:00

Why do I love to read those smses he gave me and make myself sad? The smses is different from the times he send me during our happy moments. I feels something missing... Something is not right somewhere... :(

When can i have it all back?

2011-04-04T18:58:00.001+08:00

I miss going on dates wit u. I miss chatting with you. I miss laughing wit u... I miss all that..,

Silly gal

2011-04-03T14:49:00.001+08:00

I cannot help it but to read again and again those hurtful SMSes he gave me then cried myself to sleep. Call me silly but tat's what make me special. How I wish all this is just a nightmare. :(

The promise i make to myself

2011-04-02T13:24:00.001+08:00

I dunno that by waking him up for solat jumaat rupenya selama ini die tk suke. I dunno that telling him to stop drinking rupenya dire tk suke. My intention is good but nk buat macam mane. Selame ini dia sabar. Mungkin nw dier sudah tk boleh sabar lagi.

After today I promise myself not to wake him up for solat jumaat(eventhough I knw I dosa), not to stop him drinking(eventhought I hate to see him drink).

Dugaan one after another. Kenape sekarang? Kenape?

He's sick and tired of my peragai. Buruk sgt ker perangai aku? Teruk sgt ker?

Kate2 nye selalu pedas. Mungkin aku selalu take him for granted.

April 1st

2011-04-01T23:56:00.001+08:00

Sejak kebelakangan ini, kite kerap gaduh. Adakan ini dugaan di alam pertunangan? Jika ia, ya Allah kuatkan la hatiku untuk menempuh dugaan2 ini...

Am i a stranger to u?

2011-02-13T10:34:00.001+08:00

Y do u treat me like a stranger? Y?

???

2011-02-13T05:09:00.001+08:00

Kite tau awak tk ok.... Kite tau there's something wrong wit u.. Do u know that I miss you?? I miss you badly...

Nervous

2011-02-11T09:23:00.001+08:00

I'm under his blk now. Dunno hw his reaction gona b... I'm scared.. I will be strong. I'll try my best to refrain from crying... I'm not a cry baby... I'll do anything to save my relationship! I know I can do this...

Bismillah....

I miss you so much....

2011-02-09T21:38:00.001+08:00

Kite rindu awk.... Kite nak call awk tapi mesti awk tk nk answer kan... Kite rindu awk sgt..... :(

Amin

2011-02-09T19:50:00.001+08:00

Semoga Allah sampaikan doaku tadi... Amin...

Breakfast

2011-02-09T12:21:00.001+08:00

Breakfast Rinna kasi masih belum mkn. And now da nk lunch pun... Nasib tk order ape2.. Will have the sandwich for lunch...

My mind is messy now... The messages is too heavy for me to handle.. I'm speechless by the messages... I am... :(

I'm left with little choice. Will have to swallow u again tonight wahai pill.

Low, lower, lowest

2011-02-09T01:37:00.003+08:00

I'm at my lowest now....

Low, lower, lowest

2011-02-09T01:37:00.001+08:00

I'm at my lowest now....

Conversation i had wit my aunt last sat

2011-02-09T00:45:00.001+08:00

I posted something in fb about the conversation topic I had wit aunt fidah and Ibu last sat and I think he tout I'm directing it to him!

Kene panggil whine?

2011-02-08T20:39:00.001+08:00

Kalau aku ade kawan aku tk akan susahkan dier.. Mcm la dier tak tau kawan aku tk tamai...

Ya Allah... Salah aku ker? Kalau aku aje kene faham die sape nak faham aku? Aku hambu yg lemah... Tolong la aku ya allah...

.....

2011-02-08T17:07:00.001+08:00

"Nxt time tink first b4 askin smting.."

Kite kene marah lagi laaa... :(

Am i not understanding?

2011-02-08T16:56:00.001+08:00

"I t0t u knew my situati0n, but sadly n0t...haiz." his SMS to me...

Am I selfish? I'm just a human being that longed to be loved...

:(

2011-02-08T15:54:00.001+08:00

My own tunang say "scary sia u" to me... Just bcuz I ask him out for a picnic on his off day...
Is my expectation too high? He told me not to be too calculative but I think I'm being reasonable enuff.. I'm being understanding enuff. Weekends off once a mth pun cannot spend time wit me? Lain la kalau every off day I ask him out... Ni da 3 weeks kite tk keluar and he told me not to berkira sgt...

Hampa seh dpt msg mcm gitu... :(

Haiz... Dugaan2...

Jogging?

2011-02-08T15:25:00.001+08:00

Haiz... Ajak gi picnic pun tk nak... Katenye pakai byk duit... "I want to go jogging sat" boringggggg!!!!

Haiz..... Mcm la hari lain tk boleh gi jogging. Nak kene pergi weekend off jugak... :(

Kalau kawan dier semua boleh.. Aku tk boleh... Pfft!

$$$$

2011-02-07T21:12:00.001+08:00

Where can I go that don require so much money??? Mcm nk gi picnic but mesti Aliim tk nk.... Mesti best kan sat mlm tgk stars and moon... Tdo dlm tent, bangoon pagi tgk sunrise pulak and mandi laut..... Maybe tonight I will try ask him la.. Tu pun kalau mood die ok! :)

Haiz

2011-02-07T14:56:00.001+08:00

From once every off day to once a week... From once a week to once every two weeks... From once every two weeks to once a mth... :(

Bayar! Bayar! Bayar!

2011-02-06T21:51:00.001+08:00

Will have to keep on reminding myself to stop asking gift from him. It's hard, but I'll try....

Seems like he still blame me for what happen to his dad car... Cant wait for my nxt pay, I'll pay him half... Inshallah I will have enuff...

B4 tunang, I'm not ashamed to ask Ibu or ayah to buy me gift. But now, mcm da malu pulak...

Haiz... I don think Aliim is like ayah. I don think he'll pamper me... :(

Are you ok dear???

2011-01-27T14:51:00.001+08:00

I've tried calling him but to no avail. I hope he's doing fine... I'm so worried for him... Hiayo.... Nk kerje pun tkde mood... :(

Kadang2 rasenya mcm asyik ikut perasaan aje.. Am I selfish??? Kecian pulak tgk Aliim mcm gini... If only I can lessen his burden...

Today, 27Jan is our 27 mth anniversary.. I love you dear...

?????

2011-01-27T01:53:00.001+08:00

Haiya.... Kenape ni dgn aku... Aliim Call pun tk tau nk comfort dier mcm mane... Otak btl nye tgh blank... Hate this laaaaa!!!

Mesti die menyumpah ekh dpt tunang mcm aku... :(

Amlina amalina.... Kenape ni bodoh nah....

Speechless

2011-01-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

Went Tamp after maghrib wit Aliim by car. We're so happy. It's not easy that we can meet and spend time together especially since he's busy.

The sedih part, bile tgh reverse, aliim tak ade railing and I hate myself because I did not keep a look out. The car was badly damaged. We both were too shocked. Bile da jadi gini, mood pun da tkde...

I blame myself because I keep on whining and keep on asking him to bring me out.. I'm felt loss and sad when I see his face. I'm sorry dear... There nothin much I can do and i just hate myself. I became speechless and I don even know how to console him... Isn't me lousy...

Haiz... He just bought a new guitar yesterday and this have to happen. Plus his department cut down on OT...

One after another... And it have to happen on eve of our anniversary... :(

Haiz... Seriously I dunno what I'm typing but I'm feeling shit... I'm disappointed of myself... How I wish I have the xtra cash and help him pay half of the damage since I'm the cause of it...

Arghhhhh!!!!!!

Cry baby

2011-01-25T18:29:00.001+08:00

I don understand y I can shed tears so easily. Again I cry when Aliim don want to tell me where he is. I'm sad... Kenape dier tk nk ajak princess keluar?

Tdi kat kerje Rinna ckp "kecian amalina. Kenape mcm lack of love gitu"

I'm sad. Dulu mane2 Aliim ajak. Skarang dier tk pernah nak ajak amalina keluar lagi... :(

He just called me. He's at peni wit wan mok. Kenape tk boleh ajak amalina skali?

:(

Die da tk syg amalina ker?

:)

2011-01-25T11:12:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulilah. He called me at 3.20. He's not angry but busy and tired...

But I know he is still shock that I nagged at him...

He kiss me on the phone!!!!!

I miss you la awak... Bile kite dapat keluar mcm dulu? I know nw the both of us busy carik duit for our big day.... But kite rindu awak.... I miss ur hug.... 

2.50 morning

2011-01-25T02:51:00.001+08:00

He did not answer my call. I'm sad...

Kenape ni?

From diary to blog

2011-01-24T20:05:00.001+08:00

1 Jan 11
My first dugaan after tunang. He drank infront of me. It hurts so much but i put a brave front. I hate to see my loved one drink. It against Islam. I know im not good either but i still think it is not right. :( i really hope he can change.

22 Jan 11
our first misunderatanding. I nagged at him for wanting to play soccer during working hrs. Apparently he cannot accept my teguran. Maybe bcuz to him, i nagged but my intension is just to voice out. I tout it's nothing serious.. But he did not Call me on that night. It's sad cuz i tout tat after our engagement he can accept my teguran but it seem like he is ego.. It's hurtful... I just dont want him to do anything stupid especially when it comes to work. Ape nak buat... He treasure his fends more than me. I don make any impact on his life... That what i feels. He cant live without his fends but he can live without me. I'm not trying to me too emotional but it seems like that.
Everday i doakan that he will change to be a better person. I know he is a nice guy. He came from a good family. His parents raise him well. but he is very stubborn. Stop him from doing something and he will really do it. He don like anyone to control him but when it comes to his fends pujukan he will give in. I observed but i keep it to myself. Afterall they're his fends. They know him longer than me.
Everytime after I solat maghrib I will doa that Allah will open his heart. I just want him to stop drinking. And show him the right path. Plus he have been missing his friday prayers for too long.. I really hope Allah will answer my prayer.. Inshallah...
I love him so so much.. I admit... It will be very very different without him... No guys have moved me as much as he did. It feels like he is my first love and inshallah will be my last...

23 Jan
He reply my msg but till nw tk call2... Salah aku ker? Takan la tk boleh kene tegur sikit pun... Im confuse la...

"S0ri..i was tired, n i dnt want t0 make matter w0rst when i m nt in e m0od. Wil cal u later when im at ease."



2011-01-24T12:36:00.001+08:00

Test post frm iphone

2011-01-24T12:15:00.001+08:00

It've been so long since i last blogged... Good news is im engaged to MD ALIIM!!!! Im blogging from iPhone. This is just a test post. Will blog soon during my lunch... I miss blogging!!!

2009-08-03T21:34:00.001+08:00

Today is bloody Monday. It’s just not my day. Early in the morning, my dad left me. Took bus to the interchange and I met a psycho guy. He is so psychotic that he rubs his dick at my arm. I sat there feeling helpless and lost. How I wish I had my bf or Nina and Syaf by my side during that time. Cuz I knw they will come to my rescues. In the train, I had a bad stomachache due to the morning breakfast. It has been awhile since I last eat early in the morning. The pain is unbearable. It left me with Goosebumps. I dragged myself to work. I miss Aliim’s so much. Lunch time, I spend the 1 hr alone at T2 MacDonalds. Had Frappe, shaker fries and magazine to accompany throughout the 1 hr. It feels great. I started to feels better until I reach the D40 security check. I was so pissed off with one of the CISCO security officer. Damn her.

2009-05-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

Things are getting better. Bf fetches me home from course today. Thank you so much. He surprises me with a packet of chocolate in my bag. It is a simple gesture from him, but it left me smiling the whole evening. He still love me..:)

2009-05-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

I’m feeling very tired. Think there something wrong with my communication or is it my self-confident? People around me tend to get the wrong idea. I do not know when to say something and when to just keep quiet. Aquilah and Seri always tell me that I need to learn to speak up and tak mu diam aje… Maybe it is true. If I tell him, these things will never happen. Amalina…. For once please learn to speak up. How I wish, I can sleep for as long as I can…

2009-05-03T04:19:00.004+08:00

It 4 in the morning and I am still awake. I miss my bf… Peoples may say I’m crazy to miss him. Reason being, I meet him every day. Ya… I admit I meet him every day but that because we are in the same work place. We go to work together and go home together. We go home straight after work. And weekends, we go out only if we meeting our friends. We did not go on a date; just the two of us. We did not. That is why I get irritated and annoyed when people say that I spend too much time with my bf or I meet my bf every day and it is not good. He will get bored of me one day. I hate that.

But, syukur alhamdulilah, I still get to see him, to hear his voice and to hug him each time we’re on the bike. Bf always teach me to be grateful with what we have because other people is not as fortunate as us. He taught me so many things about life and I have learned to value what I have now. How can I don’t love him so much???

I miss going on dates with him.
I miss spending some quiet moment with him at the beach after work.
I miss spending times with him; just the two of us….
I miss him right now…
It raining heavily with thunder and lightning. I want to be next to him.

I miss his hug. I miss his kisses. I miss his pad on my head. I miss his smell.

I miss him so much even thought I meet him every day.

I miss spending time with him; just the two of us; without his friends and my friends…….

Do you know that I miss you so much???

Labour day pictures…..

Rollerblade session with my colleagues

Night outting with the garage kids

2009-04-28T22:01:00.003+08:00

I’m very happy to be with Aliim. I love him a lot. But I never thought that having a bf who used to have a mixed blood gf, who used to love a girl and waited patiently for her can make me feels so low. I love my bf a lot. But at the same time, I have no confident in myself. I lost the confident after I knew that his ex gfs is all pretty and from mixed blood, The fact that he actually waited so long for a girl he love and instead of being together with her, it is me he end up with. I love him too much to let him go.

I do not know what wrong with me today. I’m sorry. Kindly bear with me.. To be frank, this stuff comes and goes. I think it normal bahx? There is so many question that I want to ask him but I do not know how to ask him. I’m scared he will think that I’m being childish and paranoid. I'm scared if i ask the wrong question he will be mad at me.

I love him and my love for him grows with each days. I know I don’t have the looks, brains but I hope I’ve moved him with my sincerity in loving him. I love him with sincerity without asking anything in return.

We have managed to overcome the first 6 crucial months of our relationship. We went through a lot of argument and alhamdulilah, we never let the argument be more than 24 hrs. Either one of us will give in. I am proud of my bf. He takes good care of me and always there for me. I’m confident these paranoid tingy will go off soon. Inshallah.

2009-04-27T22:05:00.008+08:00

Random picture..

Escape Theme Park
Toys Museum
Night Safari...

2009-04-27T21:11:00.004+08:00

Celebrate BF birthday last Friday. It took me 2 weeks to plan everything and I’m very happy with the result. Thanks to Fazhan for recommending me shop on where i can find variety of G Shock watches.

To Zubir, Lily and Aquilah for their time and effort accompanying me get bf birthday present. Not forgetting mummy for helping me send the poster to frame and daddy for driving me to his house of Friday night.

On Tuesday after work, I went Bugis to meet Zubir and Lily. Get BF a G Shock watch and I found myself outside the shopping ctr brainstorming on what else I can get for him. We came up with all kind idea. We went to the new shopping ctr at Bugis to get BF a basketball jersey. But I find the material too cheap and not worth the price. I saw a very nice poster of Ultraman at one of the shop. There are few Untraman and Marsk Rider poster that caught my attention. I love them all. It is so cute. . I asked Zubir for his opinion if BF will hang the poster in his room. There’s no point buying him the poster if he did not gantung kan. I end up buying two posters. Zubir suggested that I send only 1 poster to frame. The other poster I can keep for another occasion.

I get mummy to send the poster to a frame shop and I am so happy with the result. The result is very nice and I’m sure BF will love it. (I think he love the poster more than the watch la kan) Then come the headache. I do not know how to wrap the poster together with the watch and teddy bear. The frame is so big and i can’t wrap it together. I end up wrapping them separately. So i have two birthday present for bf!!!

Wednesday after work, Aquilah accompany me to Parkway to get boxes for the watch and teddy bear.... It is a headache. We end up in borders and i saw a very cute skull paper bag. It is so him with the "skull" graphic. Aquillah suggested that I can put the teddy bear and watch in the paper bag. But I find the paper bag too big for a bear and watch, so I went to Levis and get him sock and undergarment. He need that too.. haha.. It is like an amazing race for us. We have so many stuff to get in that 2 hrs. We don’t even have time for dinner. I managed to get a big velvet birthday card from one of the florist shop. The card is pretty.... I'm very happy with my purchases. But I swear... It is very tiring. haha..

Thurday, i spend the whole night wrapping his present and personalized his teddy bear and birthday card. I'm very very proud of myself. This is the first time I put in so much effort in personalizing stuff... Ceh ceh ceh.. haha... I find the frame wrapping so plain; I bought a "Happy Birthday" banner to paste on the wrapper and put the birthday card in the poster.
Friday, went T2 to buy a small birthday cake. Not wanting to make BF suspicious of the cake box, i deliberately get 2 boxes. And tell him that it is for my sister.. :) During lunch, I transfer money to Zubir account to buy pizza. And I make daddy drive me to Aliim house at night.
Thanks daddy... I hope he like the present and small surprise I plan for him. This is the first time Amalina tebalkan muke, calls his fends and ask them accompany me to get his present and invite them for his small surprise party. Nasib his friends all sporting tau.. haha.. Thanks guys... Hopefully they don’t find me a trouble.

**This is what i get for him. Hope he like it**

2009-04-05T22:43:00.001+08:00

Just came back from a short run @ Bedok Stadium. Today, I ran 5 rounds which is equal to 2km only... I feel fresher after the run and my body feels more energize.

Friday after work went T3 for a short walk. Bf gets himself a new hp. W902!!! And it in lime green. Nice colour baby... Then we went to have our dinner @ Rahimah and meet the rest under his voide deck.

Saturday went sungei rd to get some stuff then went Bras Basah road to collect his drum. I went to the new shopping centre @ Bugis and i’ve fallen in love with the lip gloss.. It yummy la kan. I will get that on my next visit. Went Arab St for some tea and had gado2 shared with bf. It yummy but then it gives me pimples!!! My face have been pimples free for few mth except for the scars on the cheek area which I give myself until end of this year for it to vanish and now I have 1 new pimples and it hurt so much!!! Damn peanut!!!

After tea, we went to Kepple Island. It so romantic la kan the place and i’m sure it a nice view for sunset... Bf... *hint* hint*... The island closes at 1 am. From there, we went to Anderson Wave!!! At last I get to go there and I’ve fallen in love with it. The view is so nice and it so windy.... We had some ghost talk and i so kecut i just keep quiet... His friends’ stories are so scary.

** I’ve talk to daddy and mummy**

2009-03-31T18:44:00.002+08:00

I’m still not in talking terms with daddy and mummy. I’m too hurt to talk to them. I’m hurt with their words… Why can’t my parents be fair to us? Why must there be favouritism? Am I so bad in their eyes? I did not get myself into trouble with the law. I did not trouble them financially. I did not. In fact, I did help them financially. But why must they tell relative that I did not help them? I help them pay for my brother school fees. I did help even though it not much. I don’t earn much, how can they compare me with my cousins or their friends’ kids? It is very unfair to me.

At least I work after my N level and O level. I did not laze around at home and ask them for money to club. I did not!!! In fact I have not even been to a club before!! And yet they can still complain about me. In their eyes, I’m just a useless girl, who did not contribute anything to the family…

I’m disappointed with my family. Luckily I still have Aliim’s. Without him, I will be lonely. He has been guiding me and I cannot afford to be without him. I find happiness in him.

I have been trying my best to shed some kilos. I gain 5kg!!! :(

I skip lunch and just have breakfast and dinner. But I realise that by dieting, it affect my mood. I tend to be lots lots more sensitive. I hate the dieting. I love to eat but I hate exercising. How How How???

I need a hug!!!

I need Aliim to hug me and go on a deep deep sleep.

2009-03-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a short jog or should I say escape from home and family. I’m feeling better after I get to see bf.

Thank awak.

You meet me even though you’re not feeling well.

After jog, bf treats me, my favourite nasi ayam penyet. Yummy yummy.

Good night. Princess going to her dreamland with Abg Aliim....

2009-03-29T14:00:00.002+08:00

We meet again after awhile. I’m not going to blog about my birthday. Not today. I’m feeling very sad with my dad. It seems like whatever I do, he is still not happy. I tried my best to be a good daughter, to be a good sister to both my younger siblings, but whatever I do; it never seems to be enough. I get the blame for my brother and sister wrongdoing. Is it fair for me? I’ve tried my very best...

It is sad. I’m feeling very down right now. Just because i’m the oldest in the family, I get all the blames and responsibility.
Thanks to bf for always there for me. Thank you... You mean so much to me. I do not have anyone except for you... My life is fills with colours ever since I met you. It is more meaningful now.

Everyday I wake up, looking forward for a brand new day with Aliim.
I feel lost without him.
The two days that he was sick is enough to prove how much he meant to me.
I cannot imagine how’s life will be without him.
He’s my everything.

I really hope Allah will know how much he meant to me and it is him, I want to grow old with. Inshallah.
Even when I am with him, without him noticing, I will gaze at him and tell myself how lucky I am to have him.

I am crazy.

I am crazy in loved with him.

I can miss him even when he is right next to me.
That is how crazy i am...

I LOVE YOU, MD ALIIM BIN MD

2009-03-17T07:21:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Princess
Happy Birthday to Princess
Happy 22nd to Princess
Happy Birthday to me….

Amalina is so so happy now.
BF surprises me at midnight.
He never fails to make me smile and cry with excitement.

I will update more with photo later after work.
Bye everyone……

2009-03-16T18:27:00.001+08:00

Hate today so much.

The worst Monday I ever had for this year.

What a day to start the week with.

I’m turning 22 in few hrs.Damn.

So not looking forward to it especially after I had a bad Monday morning.

Think it true that I having birthday cursed...

2009-03-15T20:39:00.001+08:00

I can’t wait for Tomorrow. Princess Miss boyfriend.
Today did not get to meet bf. He kene OT. :(
Saturday, I went China Square to get Aquila Hp casing followed by Plaza Sin

for a little shopping at DAISO and Cotton On.
Night went Farhan’s birthday pit @ Pasir Ris Park.

I’m still thinking if I should post the video of

my most memorable day with Aliim.
The video, when Aliim’s propose to me.
The video that make me love bf more every time I watch it.
The video I have to watch every night.

Should I???

2009-03-13T20:17:00.003+08:00

Today lunch was at Swensense. We had the 1 for 1 ala Carte meal.
We order giant earthquake and it so yummy.
Aida surprise us with birthday cake for the March Babies.
Thanks babe.
Aliim’s is back to work. He still looks very sick…
Kecian Bf kite.

2009-03-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

Princess miss Abg Aliim sangat sangat..

Pray hard that he will come to work tomorrow and have recovered...

Kecian bf kite..

This time dier betul2 nye sakit...

I miss you.. miss you so much...

Princess Nak Hug! Nak Hug!

Nak Hug jugak!!!!

2009-03-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

Aliim’s is on 2 days MC!

Amalina miss bf…

Will be alone at work tomorrow..

Get well soon, smelly bacin bf…

I miss…..

Sniff sniff sniff… whoa.. shioknye…

2009-03-10T20:00:00.001+08:00

1 week to my 22nd birthday.

I’m so not looking forward to it. I’m getting older and for the past few years, I have been cursed on my birthday. I last celebrated my birthday when I’m 16. After that I have not been having a birthday party and I think I have been cursed. Birthday cursed! Is there such thing as birthday curse??? Haha...

Amalina da tua larx!!!!

Omg... 22 years old babe!!!

My dream is to get engaged by 23, married by 25 and be a mother by the age of 27. Amalina’s forever in her dreamland. Eheh.. Tak salah kan kalau nk berangan.

Become a mother at the age of 27, for me, is already old. I want to be a young mother. So I can interact with my children better. There won’t be a barrier between us. I’m still young and have the energy to run and play with my children.

Can my dream come true???

Inshallah kalau ade jodoh and rezeki tak ke mane kan???

2009-03-09T19:28:00.001+08:00

Aliim was on urgent leave today. I feel paralyzed without him. He on 1 day A/L but he have so many things need to settle. Renew his road tax, insurance and stuff. Amalina miss bf.

It feels so weird to walk to work and home alone.

I miss teasing him.

I miss his nyakat.

I miss his hug.

I miss his kiss.

I miss his Donald Duck lips expression.

I miss biting him.

I miss pinching him.

I miss tickling him.

I simply miss him.

Sunday I did not get to meet boyfriend. He teman Black to get his gf stuffs.

And today, I only get to see him less than 30 min. He antar princess to work and that all… Baru 2 days tk dapat meet bf tu pun nak sedih2 ke??? I keep on telling myself that.

He drops me off at the carpark and princess get 2 kisses from bf early in the morning tau!!!

After that I just walk off without looking back.

To make it worst, Farhan’s email is so disturbing. It affects my mood for the whole day. It makes me miss bf more. And Farhan keep on playing the song SENDIRIAN in the office... Hmpf...

2009-02-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

I’m on leave tomorrow. Clearing my 2008 leave. Going to the salon I frequent for treatment and hair cut. Wanted to try home based salon but Aliim did not allow me since I have never been there before and I will be alone in the house. Anything can happen.

Today after work Aliim bring me to the salon I frequent since I forgot on how to get there by bus cuz all these while I took cab. He is one caring bf. I thought he will just show me the place. I did not expect him to park his bike when I could not give him a definite answer. He knows his gf well enough. I’m such a blur sotong girl. He brings me to the bus stop to see the bus service and I have to show him the exact salon I’m going to. That my bf. He really takes good care of me. I’m touched by his love, concern and care. I love you sweetheart.

Then he brings me to IKEA for jalan2 since I won’t be meeting him tomorrow. Thanks dear for spending more time with me today. I appreciate it. Amalina so happy today.
Tomorrow i’m meeting my gals at Tamp for dinner. It only 50% confirm since Terence might book out early. If not meeting her then I can surprise Aliim at Airport tomorrow!!!! Eheh...

This weekend will be attending Aida and Father Mok Engagement. Congratulation guys.

2009-02-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

It has been ages since i last blogged. I know it too late but i’m still stubborn and want to wish you people HAPPY 2009!!!!....

Life has been great. Love has been great. What more can I expect???

I won’t blogged as often as I used to reason being.....Amalina is just plain lazy and there so many nice drama to watch. Working is forever suck. Every day I come to work looking forward to 1730 to meet my love... We have been a good couple.. We went straight home after work and party during the weekends only.

PARTY = Enjoying ourselves (not partying or clubbing).

We went ice skating, bowling, playing soccer with his buddies and their fiancés and more. Ouh ya, Bf taught me skateboarding. It was fun. I can balance myself on the skateboard pretty well. I can make a right turn. I still have to practice on my left turn though.

I’m still thinking if I should just shutdown this blog. I dunno. I’m still thinking. Or maybe I will change a new blog add again?? Miss Vain no longer suit me. I’m no longer vain!

I’m leading a simple life with bf. I have stop shopping. In fact, My last shopping spree is months ago. The last time I shop was in KL holidaying with Bf. It was in early DEC and I brought a VANS shoes, comics and DVD. Eversince then, i’m addicted to shoes. I even wear my VANS with my dress. It is so comfy. I have lost touch with my wedge. I have lost touch with my contact lense. I have lost touch with my make-up. I have lost touch with my hair. It is long and messy now. That is AMALINA.....

Bf is in JB now. Meeting him later at night to celebrate AIDA birthday and jamming session. Yuhoooo... Drum rolls please.....

Ice Skating @ Kallang

Kite Flying

2008-11-23T20:02:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the comments. I’m feeling good. The comments from AFRIEND somehow, make me happier. Thank to bf for trusting me and don mind about my past... I love you sweetheart...

Saturday, Aliim picked me after maghrib. Yesterday is the first time he saw me in tudung. Hehe.. Until now, his first expression upon seeing me in tudung is still fresh in my head. Ahah..
He parks his bike at his house and we walk to the mosque with his mum and sister. In the mosque, I seat in between his mum and sister. I do feel nervous at first, but somehow I tell myself since Aliim and I am serious with each other and we are already in a serious relationship, sooner or later I will still have to face that situation, Only that it happen sooner than I expected.

The cuace yesterday is so humid that I think yesterday is the first time I whines about the warm cuace. I’m sorry awk for being such an irritating girlfriend yesterday.

After the forum, we went to have dinner with his family. I’m kinda scared la cuz for dinner his dad is there too.. Ahah.. Luckily his niece is there with us so more attention is paid on her and that really save me.. I drop by his house after dinner and stay there till around midnight. Luckilly my mum understand. She kinda shock and laugh at me when I told her the whole story.

I already received the video from LILY. Thanks dear. I keep on watching it over and over and that make me miss Aliim more.. 12 more hours and i’ll get to meet my syg... I miss him!!!!!

My Shy BF...

Amalina & Aliim

2008-11-22T17:00:00.002+08:00

I’m home on Saturday and it seems like it going to rain heavily. The sky is dark now. It is such a nice whether to sleep. This week is my sicky week. I fell sick on and off. I hate it so much. Friday after work, went VIVO with BF. I had my taksin beef noodles. Yummy2. Today suppose to meet my girls but somehow, syaf bf bike kene stolen and Aliim mum ask us to attend syarahan at the mosque. So, ya, tonight I will be going to the mosque with him. How I wish I can seat next to him.

Comment from AFRIEND

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AFRIEND: Hey Babe, Sometimes it's our fault that we did not receive the love,care n concern from our parents. They know us better th. I mean if u could look urself in the irror. I believe u seldom does housework, u rather spent quality time dng ur shopping n your friends and also u tend to always stay late.

21 November 2008, 22:48

I spend my time doing my shopping?? Hmm I don’t think so. My financial is so tight now that I would thik thrice to buy a dress. I have not been shopping for the past 2 mth and my bf know that. Even if i did buy something, then it thanks to my parents. I admit I seldom do housework that is because my mum rather does the housework herself. Since young she and my grandma pampered my and stop me from doing housework. So now that I older, don blame me if im lazy. Ya i admit I do stay out late. Can’t I reward myself for the hard work and stress that I went through during the weekdays??

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AFRIEND: I've been ur avid reader and we used 2 be friends. I knew that u r also a follower. U tend 2 be influential with Ppl. Seperti lembu dicucuk hidung. During ur sec skewl days, u step mcm cina ala2 ahlian. U snoke lah then when u in ITE, U pose as some girlie wannabe. U can't blame ppl if they want 2 think negative about

21 November 2008, 22:52

During my sec school day u say that i step mcm cina ala2 ahlian?? It is maybe because majority of my classmate are Chinese. I did mix with malay too. I have NINA and YUSOFF.. They are my close malay friend. If you say that i step ala2 cina, I did not ask for it. It peoples who always mistaken me for a Chiness. I did try to make friends with malay, but did they give me a chance to? I admit I smoke. But that was during my lower sec sch. You tend to get easily influence and ya i admit i get influence easily. ITE, you said that I pose as some girlie wannabe. Which in me that said Im a poser?? I’m born a girl. If i pose as some girlie wannabe, I won’t be having TAEKWANDO as my CCA back in ITE.

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AFRIEND: It's all becuase of you. U brings out and shows all ur negative vibes to the surrounding. You are the potrait and ppl shall judge u.. I hope u won’t get any wrong ideas from this. I just wanna give u some advice which u can ponder on it. Cheers!

21 November 2008, 22:53
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Ya.. Maybe you’re right. I portray myself as a bad girl. Everyone have their past. Now when i’m trying to be a better person, shouldn’t people around me give me a chance instead of reminding me of my past and mistake? Everyone do make mistake.

2008-11-16T20:37:00.005+08:00

Weekends are fun... I get to spend time with Aliim. Before he get new job that require him to work shift, we both make this opportunity to spend time together. We know that this won’t last long. Good thing will never last long.

I enjoy accompanying him smoke at 10 from Monday to Friday. I enjoy walking home with him. I enjoy chatting with him under my block every weekday. I enjoy jogging with him. I enjoy doing all that. I never complain even once. I know this won’t last long, especially when he is in the lookout for better job.

We have been going home straight after work and only out until late at night on weekends. We heed his dad advice. We try and adapt to our parents expectation. We will show them that we are really serious about our relationship.

Sometime, when you know that he is the one that you want to spend time with, you will do anything. Love really does keep you going. Thanks to him, i’m more semangat to go to work. I am happier now. At least he appreciates me. That matter most.

Friday after my religious class, I meet him to watch VCD “labu labi”. It is such an old school drama. It feels so cozy to watch that on my lappie next to him. That is our Friday night date.
Saturday, we just stay at home and rest, Since Sunday we have to wake up early in the morning for my aunt family day.

Aliim reach my house at 9.45 and we go there by dad’s car since my little sister follow. Luckily dad’s let him drive his car. We won’t have to take public because the place is so deep inside. Venue of our date is bottler tree park. We both bought something in red. I get for myself a red adidas tote bag and he gets for himself red ManU jersey.

Suppose to meet my gfs at night but the whole thing finish late and by the time I reach home, they already out. Ish... I miss Nina and Syaf. I miss ALiim too...

2008-11-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile since I last blogged. I’m so disappointed with my parents. I am. After all this while I thought they have change their thought of me. But today, what happen show that they still do not trust me and they are ashamed of me.

I know my brother is cleverer than me. I’m just an ITE graduate. Since young he has been getting all the love from my parents. As for me, I have been getting anything that I want. I just need to name it to my dad and by nxt mth dad will buy for me. People say I am pampered because I get everything that I ask for. But they forget that what I actually need is their attention, love and care.

I am sad when mum say that of all my siblings, I’m the one who spend most of their money. She is right. What she forgets is, of all her 3 kids, I’m the one that get the least love and care from them. I’m jealous when I see my parents give all the attention to my brother. They really pamper him. Whatever he wants to do, he gets it. If my aunts or cousins tegur them about my brother, they can give 101 reasons to back him up. But when it comes to me, they will complain about me to them. They will say, I’m so lazy to do housework, keep on going out until late at night and more. I even get the blame for what happen to my brother. Do you think it fair for me???

I can only pray that my parent will have a positive thinking of me. It is sad when your own parents do not trust you and put the blame on you for what happen to your younger siblings. I am sad...

2008-11-06T20:15:00.003+08:00

I have been so busy that I have been postponing my entries on Deepavali. This yeat deepavali, I will remember for the rest of my life. That is because, Aliim propose to me. He has been planning this with his good buddies without me realizing it. He has been sleeping late at night just to practice with his friends. I am so touched by his action. I’m sorry awk if kite buruk sangke..

4 weeks I’ve waited for Deepavali. But I did not expect that on that day, I would be his gf. We know how we felt towards each other except that we are not officially together. So, ya… Monday 27 October, we are officially bf/gf.

Sunday, 26 October…
I received first msg from him.

I am so mad at the msg. I’ve waited for him to wake up just to receive a msg saying he went out jamming with his friends. He did not even call me.. Humph… Bluek… I told myself to remain cool. Futhermore he is not my bf and I have no right to be mad at him. I keep myself occupied. I went to my uncle house warming. Make myself busy. Then I went over to my 2nd uncle and chill there until midnight. While I was at my 2nd uncle house, I receive a short phone call from him. I feel so delighted just hear his voice. 1 whole day I did not get to hear his voice. The feeling is just amazing. That is when I realize that I misses him so much and he have become parts of my everyday life. That is the first time that we did not exchange sms or phone cal for a long period of time other than the day he punk me that he is going to Taiwan for reservist.

After the short phone call, no msg from him until around 3 plus. That sms really test my patient and make me restless. I can’t sleep tau thinking of his safety. Ish.. I told myself that I have fallen for him deeply. Ha have managed to make me forget my past and it is him that I want to be with now.

But at the same time, I am scared. I’m scared if he only regards me as his friends or worst sister. Ish.. That is surely hurtful. I twist and turn. Every 1 hour I would wake up checks on the time. I can’t wait for noon to come.

He make me miss him so much and at the same time bingit lor. Ish.. Tak baik ekh awk.. You make Amalina misses you…

At first, we’re supposed to meet at 4. Due to the rain, he fetches me at 4.45. There is so many question that I want to ask him. I’m so eager to know where we are heading to. But Aliim still did not want to tell me.

We went to East Coast Park. Right at the end of the park. He brings me to the water breaker and we just seat down there. The feeling is awkward. I just keep quiet and speechless. He asks me how I feel about him and that left me with a blank mind. He told me that after today, he is not sure on how our friendship will be like. If we will be as close as we used to be. I’m shock with what he said. Inside my head, please don say that this will be our last meeting. I almost burst into tears. I look away from him and hold back my tears. I’m so scared that history will repeat itself again.

He then asks me if I trust him.

I was blindfolded. He makes me walk for a distance until we reach the beach. I was asked to seat on something I assume is a bench but actually plastic chair. He gave me an object to hold.He told me that after he open my blindfold, I need to turn behind and seat quietly. I;m so scared that he going to punk me that I ask him, there is no animal ekh.. Heee. I am scared of animal mahx.

I slowly turn to my right, I saw LILY videocam me. Then I saw Zoobie and Wan mok with their guitar. Wan black with the electronic drum and Aliim in the middle. I was shock that I run to no where.. ahah.. That is my reaction. I was asked to return to my seat and there I seat patiently as they play a song tittle Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade… I was speechless that I dare not look at Aliim face. I look into the sea and I cry. I tried my best to stop the tears but…. I cry like a small baby tau.. Ish malu2…

After the song ended, he come to me, kneel down and said: “Awk, I’ve been waiting for this moment and I don’t want to keep you waiting. I may not be your kind of dream guy bit it’s you that I really wanna be with. And there’s already an empty space reserve for you in my heart. Will you be my gf?”

omg!!! HAHA… OF CUZ I SAY YES LA KAN… hehe.. ish..

Wan Mok is the father mok of the day. We exchange our vows.. Ahah. All I know is that father Mok say, You are now bf/gf and you may kiss each other.. Ish… haha.. Mcm marriage gitu kan..

I love you aliiim… Love you love you love…

I feel so special on that day.. Thank you sayang!!!

Zoobie and Lily is the chef while Aliim follow them to the market to do grocery shopping.. hehe..

We had pasta and it so yummy…

The object that I was asked to hold is a flower. I was in cloud 9 and I promise I will remember 27 October… What took place on that day keep on playing in my head that I can remember every details of it.

He Blindfold me

He propose to me

Father mok reading his script

The Flower

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You lyrics

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find




Lyrics  Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You lyrics

2008-11-05T21:24:00.004+08:00

Friday I went jogging wit Aliim. We went Bedok Stadium for our jog. Then we went to Rahimah Coffee Shop. I had my Ayam Penyet. It is so yummy... Imagine me in my short, and t shirt with running shoe and Aliim in his running tops and super short shorts eat at coffee shop in the wee hours.. Ahah.. It just like a couple who is hungry in the middle of the night. Ceh. After super, he drives me home.

Saturday, meet Syaf and Yan for rollerblading session at East Coast. It was fun. Too bad Nina and boyfriend could not join us. Babe, please make yourself and boyfriend free for some crazy session with us. Aliim and Yan is addicted to blading already. Maybe next, we can try ice skating or kite flying.. Whoooo.... After our blading session, we had dinner at MAC. Wanted to play bowling but e place was crowded. Went Kallang Leisure to watch movie, but they only left with high school musical.. Boring.We went Cine Level 9 for our own movie session. Watch ARANG. It is a super scary movie. After the movie we go separate way. Aliim and I went somewhere to chill until 6. Dish... Sleepy babe...

Reach home, we chat until 9 and suppose to wake up at 12 for his friend wedding. But we both overslept. We went to the wedding at 3 instead. After the wedding, we went esplanade and everything get emotional.

Awk, I will remember that night. The night where I really open up and talk about what have been bothering me. The night where I really hate to see you go home. The night where I wish I can have you by my side all night. The night where I wish I could fall asleep in your arm. The night where I wish you could pad my head until I fall asleep. The night where I wish you kiss my forehead until I fall asleep. I love you so much and I really wish that we both will remember that very night and go through every obstacle together. You are so special in my eye. Thank you for tolerating my childish behaviour. Only you can tolerate me. Please always be patient with me, Syg...

27 October

2008-10-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

I’m feeling so happy. There are no words to describe this happiness. Thank You Aliim for making me feel special on 27 October. I’ll always remember that special moment. You really make me feel like a princess. How I wish the day wouldn’t end so soon. I have not had enough of you…

I will update more by this weekends. For the moment, kindly let Amalina be in her dreamland with Aliim….

2008-10-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

Rain Rain go away....
Come again another day...
Amalina have a date with Aliim...
Rain Rain go away...

Suppose to meet him at 4 but due to the heavy rain, we meet later...

But the good news is, we going by car... So even if it starts to rain later, we have shelter...
Aliim just called me and I ask him so many questions. I’m so curious la kan... Ish.. Have to wait 45 more min.... He is taking the car first...

If 4 weeks is nothing to me...45 minute is a peanut. Cey... Haha.. But inside me, I can’t wait to know what is it that Aliim have been so secretive for 4 weeks.. Gosh.

The nearer it is, the more I’m fidgeting

**Hujan Rahmat?**

2008-10-27T03:49:00.003+08:00

Finally... It Monday..
The feeling in me is scared and curious.
Aliim have been avoiding me the whole day.
I managed to talk to him for like 5 min only.

He is now out jamming. Damn.. I just can’t wait for noon.
Noon please come fast. Amalina is scared, worried....

As I am blogging now, Aliim called. Im worried for him.
Gosh.. Amalina is scared.. I am scared...

But, it feels relieved to hear his voice... It is...

Good Night. Opss... Morning..

Happy Deepavalee.......

2008-10-26T16:49:00.004+08:00

Saturday was so best. I get to sleep the whole day. Wake up at 5.30 in the afternoon. Gerek...

After Maghrib went Bedok interchange to pay my bill.

Then we went Kallang Leisure Park for movie. We watch Tropic Thunder. I recommend the movie. It is a nice movie.
After the movie, we went Bencoolen for super. I had cheese prate with milo dinasour. Yummy..

1 more day..... :)

My lunch on Friday.

I want my cheese prata!!!

We love sniffing the tissue.

2008-10-25T13:03:00.002+08:00

Yahoo.. Saturday is here.

I still have 1 more day to MONDAY, DEEPAVALI… I am so looking forward to it. I’ve waited 4 weeks for this day.

What so special about MONDAY the 27 is……

To be frank, I also do not know… But what I know is that I have a date with Aliim and the ending is I’m not sure. He told me it might be a happy ending or a sad ending.

What exactly is it? I’m left clueless and scared too. What kind of sad ending can it be?

If you have been reading my blog for the past few years, I’m sure you’ll realize that I prefer to think negative than positive. That is why I have been thinking what kind of sad ending it can be.

Amalina is scared but at the same time looking forward to Monday.

I always pray that Allah won’t take away the happiness I have been having these 2 months so soon. I do not think I am prepared for it.

**Amalina Pray hard that it is not a sad ending**

2008-10-21T19:33:00.001+08:00

Please click on the link below for my hari raya visiting picture with Aliim and his friends...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35455&l=9263a&id=631682608

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35457&l=90546&id=631682608

2008-10-21T19:08:00.002+08:00

Assalammualaikum ... Staying home for two days is no fun. I’m so bored okie. Luckily Aliim call me during his free time to accompany me. Monday, I was on my bed most of the time and at times answering call from office asking me for work and stuff. I can barely walk on Monday.

Today it is far far better. I wake up early in the morning to have breakfast at mamak shop. I need to practice my walking okie!! It has been few days since I last had my long walk. Breakfast was murtabak with tea tarik. Yummy. I love tea. Take a walk around the round market. I brought an Oshkosh dress for my cousin, Nurul. Mummy brought a blouse and she got me a tube dress and a bareback dress. Thanks. The dress that I order online has arrived. It so short!! Amalina, lovin it.

Let us recall back. Saturday, I went for Hari Raya outing with Aliim and his friends. It was fun. The last Hari Raya outing was when I was in my first year of ITE. It has been a long time. Few funny incidents happen. I’m so paiseh la kan. Okie, i won’t elaborate more.
The outing ended around midnight. Since Aliim need to return the camera back by that night, I went up, change to my EMLO night gown and bring my lappie down to transfer the picture. I thought it won’t take so long. And you know what?? Since it not every day that he gets to drive car, we went for a spin. We went 7-eleven to get coffee. Then I told him, I wanted to see the night life in Geylang. We drive around the Lorong. This is my first time tau. I get to see bapok and stuff. It an eye opener and I’m so jakun asking him so many questions. Then we went to the padang to have our chips and just talk.

Both our bladder need to use the toilet urgently and we’re like foreign people looking for toilet. Make do with the petrol kiosk at Siglap. So far kan, frm Padang to Siglap. This is the best part. Luckily it was in the wee hours. I went to the guys’ toilet because the female toilet was lock. Ahah.. First time tau I went to the guys’ toilet. Then we went East Cost and chill there until Sunrise. Too bad, it too cloudy and we did not manage to see the sun.
It fun fun fun.... I’m enjoying myself, Eventhough i’m only in my ELMO night gown and slippers, with serabai hair. Luckily he don mind that okie. And I do not even have an IC or money with me. AHah..

Brought this online

Thanks mummy

2008-10-20T19:34:00.003+08:00

Im home!!! On 2 days MC until tomorrow.. Damn. I sprain my leg and it super painful lor. Aliim send me to doctor yesterday night. Thank you awk. My feet are still swollen. It is more painful now. It is so bise and I cannot walk!!! Damn. Yesterday night was fine. At least I can still walk. But, this morning the pain gets worst.

After a visit to the doctor, we went downtown east for dinner. Then his friends came to join us. We wanted to watch movie, but no nice show to watch. We went katong shopping mall for a game of pool. Was there until 1 plus. Then we make a move to Rahimah Coffee Shop for super. Home sweet home for me.

I won’t get to meet him for 2 days.

Amalina tak suke. Leg please get well soon. I wanna meet Aliim.

Sigh. :(

2008-10-13T19:23:00.005+08:00

Weekends so the GEREK.... Friday after work went home since my aunts is coming for Hari Raya Visits. Then, meet Aliim around 11.30. We went Marina Square MacDonalds for dinner and just chilled with our lappie. Around 1 plus in the morning, we walk to esplanade. We chill there until 5 plus and home sweet homes for us. Reach home around 6 plus in the morning. Chat with him until 7.
Wake up at 10 for hari raya visits with family until 0130am. Chats with Aliim... We both were super tired. He was at his house open house.

Sunday I wake up late. Mother was angry at me for waking up late. Meet Syaf and Yan. We had Dinner at MacDonalds. Have you seen someone eat McSpicy with milk shake?? Well, Yan did. Yucks.. haha.. It so the muak..

We went cathay to buy movie tix. We went to the arcade to play game while waiting for the movie to start. It is so fun. After movie, we brought Ben & Jerry. We chill at SIM.
It is so fun!!!

Aliim get well soon Okie. It feels so different when you did not bully me for a day.

2008-10-07T21:07:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum kawan-kawan..

New blog skins for new memories. Life has been good. Fasting month, Alhamdulilah, I managed to face it with hati yang tabah and I feel calmer.

As you know I have been going out with LAME. Now, allowed me to introduce him to my blog. His name is Aliim. He is from my work place but… I did not know him through work. I did not even know he is from the same work place as me until he told me.

As explained by him to his friends, he knows me while on the way to work and my heels got stuck in between holes and he help me out!! So let us just take it that way. Can we?? Hehe…

He added me in friendster and msn. At first he send me messages in friendster. I do not layan him la.. He looks so matreps and his pictures portray him as one. Ahaha.. Sorry Aliim… wink

Gradually we chat in msn. During that time, I was chatting with some other guys too. Again, I don really layan him. His msn picture was a matrep picture. He was having golden hair. I detest guys who color their hair like a golden monkey. I started layan him when he told me that he is going for interview and should he color his hair black. Ya, me being the counsellor tak menjadi give him advice for his interview. Ahah..

I tell myself, : Hey, he is human being too. And I need to give myself a chance to know him. No harm making friends. Even matrep deserve to have friends”

Glad I give myself a chance to know him.

We chat every night, when I reach home after work while waiting for buke, and when he came back from terawih. We chat until late night or should I say early morning. Me being a sleeping beauty forgo my sleeps just to chat with him.

Maybe, there is a similarity in us. We both childish.. Ahah..

He surprises me at CDC one of the days and that is when we start to go home together everyday after work. After that I look forward to work and wait patiently for 1730… As you know, I have problems at work and I hate going to work. Will not elaborate more.

At least now, I have something to look forward too.

I can act as childish as I want, make my monkey face, be a clown, wear what I want without getting critise by him. There is no stress. Maybe, we just know each other so that is the reason he can still tolerate my nonsense. In future, I do not know.

Aliim, I hope that you will always be patient with my nonsense.

For the moment, only SITI AMANINA and NUR SYAFIAH can tolerate my nonsense and blurriness. It wound be great to have an addition person who can tolerate and understand me.

This year, my life is a mess. There are so many incidents that happen to me and I want to put it behind me. So, really look forward for what God have planned for me. Who know, Aliim is a gift from Allah to me, for my patient during the early part of 2008. Cei.. haha.. ok Amalina, stop day dreaming.

Thanks NUR SYAFIAH and SITI AMANINA for your accompany during my difficult time. During the period, I’m having problems with EKIN and YAZID. Giving me advice and scolded me when I need to be scolded. I know “thank you” is not enough for all the troubles that the both of you went through to knock some sense into my head.

Thank you kawan-kawan.

Not forgetting DIANA (dickna) for chatting with me and sharing your experience with me.

FYQA (qaqa) for exchanging email during office hours with me and give me opinion. Thank you so much girls. I will always remember that.

Thank you Terence (NINA boyfriend) and YAN (SYAFIAH boyfriend) for loaning your girlfriends to me. J

For now, AMALINA will wait patiently for the 2nd surprise by Aliim. Was told that there will be a surprise for me… Hmmm…. You better don show my monkey faces to your friend ok Alimm… I do not want that as a surprise. If you did, Amalina will chop2 awk, and cook chicken chops. Haha..

Looking forward to this SUNDAY!!! It been sometimes since I last met my girlfriends. Yahooo….

AMALINA LOVE THIS YEAR, RAMADHAN, BECAUSE
I GET TO KNOW SOMEONE WHO NEVER FAILS TO
MAKE ME SMILE AND FEEL SPECIAL!!!
Thanks “LAN PEPPET”
Ops… ALIIM
Heee

2008-10-05T01:53:00.002+08:00

Amalina would like to wish everyone a Selamat Hari Raya Edul Fitri. Amalina ingin meminta maaf sekiranye terlepas cakap, atau Amalina ada menyakitkan hati sesiapa Halal kan makan minum Amalina and Amalina tahu, Amalina ade menyakitkan hati sesetengah kawan.. Amalina Hanya insan biasa. Di sini, Amalina menyusun sepuluh jari memohon ampun and maaf sekiranye terlanjur cakap atau menyingung perasaan kawan2..

And to my GIRLDFRIENDS, Nur Syafiah and Siti Amanina, I’m sorry to be an ass at times. I know I can be frickle minded and such a difficult spoil brat girl. Thanks for your accompany and always there for me. I miss you girls so much. Must meet up soon with me okie.

2008-10-05T01:25:00.007+08:00

First Day of Raya

2008-10-05T01:19:00.005+08:00

Raya Eve was fun. I went Geylang with LAME and his friends. Then we go Changi South to play mercun. My mercun never fly off. I make two mercun and both never fly off… Ish…. Came back at 0630 morning.. Tiring..But Best la!!!

The mercun

Mercun in progress

2008-09-28T20:52:00.006+08:00

Ramadhan will end soon. Welcome the month of syawal. How I wish Ramadhan will last a little longer. It passes so fast. I feel calmer and I love this year Ramadhan. I miss my GIRLFRIEND thought. I have not met them for 1 whole month. I did not manage to join them during their break fast last Tuesday. I’m so sorry girlfriend. We’ll meet up soon ok. I miss those little gossips I had with you girls. Syaf and Nina have start working. Hardly see them online. Miss conference chat with them. We have to meet soon we can celebrate Jacqueline birthday.

Saturday, wake up early morning to do my hair. Then meet my Matrep brother and Kak Anne. We went Bugis to get my brother Hari Raya stuff. Then I went home, Brother and Kak Anne went Geylang to get his baju kurung and Capal. I shower and meet LAME for break fast. Since I already promise to treat him MAC. We went VIVO and lost our way there. After buke, we saw his bestie and accompany him look for stuff. Then meet the rest of his friends. We went Pasir Ris for mid night movie. It ended around 3 plus. Ngantok beb. My mum and LAME mum call, nagged at us for watching midnight movie during fasting mth!!! ISh...

Reach home around 4 plus. Chat with him until 6 plus then he has to go Kubur. Good Night for me.

I have been msn online since just now. Girlfriends.... Where are you???

Grandma calls me just now. She asks why I have not been calling her. Sorry grandma, I have been sleeping during lunch time. Usually I will cal her alternate day during my lunch time for a little chat with her. She cal and ask about YAZID and ME. I told her that we do keep in contact but just as friends. He is busy with is new hobby now. Luckiy she did not ask more. And i know that me and YAZID is history. It all over.. I have better stuff to think..

2008-09-28T19:51:00.006+08:00

I been punked by LAME.. Damn u LAME.. haha… OK, actually he did not go TAIWAN for reservist and there is no reservist at all!!! He punk me because he want my address to send Hari Raya card!! Since last week I have been chatting with him, he keeps on asking me to sleep first because he needs to write “WASIAT”. I’m so gundu percaye kan dier that if you’re send oversea for reservist you need to write a “wasiat”. His reservist is on Monday. He calls talk to me as usual. He sends me messages and asks me for any last words. It seems so real. He asks if I have received letter from the government regarding his “wasiat” and stuff. Damn it lor..

On Tuesday, I go to work as usual. After work, I open my Post Box and Tadaaa…. There is an envelope for me. Again I thought it a letter regarding his reservist “wasiat” But it not la kan!! Inside the envelope there is another envelope… Damn it. I was smilling to myself. I thought it a Hari Raya card. Reach home, I read the card and DAMN it!!! I’ve been punked by him. And all these night when he told me he needs to write wasiat, is actually to make me a card!!! Gosh.. Im touched instead of mad.

He sanggup take urgent leave on Monday just to make sure that I believe he is actually in Taiwan. He does wanna bumped into me at work!! Haha.. Amalina been punked!!! I’m so stupid la kan.

He surprises me at CDC with his friends. He saw me fall down and stuff. Tuesday is the worst practical. I fall down so many times and I skidded while doing my figure 8!!!! We went to Kembangan coffee shop for some food with his friends. Reach home around 1 plus.

My sister is being such a sweetheart. He makes for LAME a card. He was speechless when I gave him card that my sister make. My sister sleeps at 11 plus just to make the card!!!

**Thank You Aliim for the lovely card. I’m touched by your action. I know you have been trying your best to cheer me up and to forget my past. You have been treating me so good. You have been motivating me that there is more to life that I should look forward to rather than wait for something that will never be mine. Thanks for listening to my whines, cries and laughter... Thanks for cheering for me during my "race" day.

At least now, I look forward to going to work and wait patiently for the clock to strike 1730!!!**

2008-09-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

Sunday break fast at PIZZA HUT, Kampung Siglap. Suppose to be my treat to LAME since he flying off on MONDAY. But in the end, he is the one who pay for the dinner. After break fast, we went EAST COAST PARK.. Damn.. The place is so familiar… That is where Yazid and me usually go. Now it all history and I do not even want to think of it. Life has to go on. We seat at the windbreaker and just talk. Then we go for a walk until we’re tired and seat by the beach. His mum call asks for Kebab and my mum call ask for Roti John!!! What a coincidence kan. We went Geylang to get the stuff. I truly enjoy myself on Sunday. :0

I’ll be away for a while. Till we meet again in 1 week time. Today I did not fast. I went T3 for lunch. Hehe.. Naughty2..I had Mc Spicy meal and nugget. Before I start my food my drink is already half gone!!! Damn… Super thirsty la babe…. That part of the mth ma.. So pardon me okie.

LAME, fly off yesterday night. Gonna miss him.. See you soon..

Went home with him, and some of his colleagues saw us. He is so relax. I’m the nervous one. He waited for me in front of my office and we walk out together. Usually, the guys that I know will just wait for me at the carpark, even though we are from the same company. But LAME is different. He doesn’t mind the stare that we will get nor he bothers about what people will say or think. Maybe because we know that we’re just friends. He can even talk to his friends with me around and ya, maybe he doesn’t feel awkward at all. There is no pressure in our FRIENDship. With my heels and me being short, susah babe nk naik scrambler.

PADI msg me this morning. He was just next to me at work and said HELLO to me but hee.. Sorry la awk.. I did not put on my spec tadi and no contact lense..

It is so fun to be single. Mummy is getting worried because I keep on going out with different guy. Well, I’m SINGLE, mummy. No harm. Even my brother chats and goes out with different girls everyday. Wink

Damn.. There is a mouse in the office!!!! OMG!!!

2008-09-16T23:49:00.001+08:00

Weekends been busy sleeping and Amalina is such a lazy bum that she sleep through the Saturday afternoon.

At night chat with lame till sahur. On Sunday, baby wakes me up at noon to bake cookies. We bake M&M cookies last Sunday. It is so super yummy. By 3 pm we were done. Went back to sleep until 6pm. Prepare the food and drinks for buke and chat with LAME until buke time. That is my boring Sunday.

Luckily I did not follow LAME to GEYLANG. He came back at 2am!!! This princess needs her beauty sleep.

Monday at work was bearable. There are so many reports that need to be done and alhamdulilah, time pass very fast. I’m so bored in the late afternoon that I trick LAME. He falls into my trick.

Night, went to see doctor and my 90 fly away…. 90 buck for 2 medication only. Before I was given the medication, I was asked to sign a form that indicate I was not allowed to get pregnant during the medication period and 4 week after my last medication. After the doctor explains to me the side effect of getting pregnant, she asks me if I’m married.

Reach home, chat with LAME, Hafiz, Ekin and hmmm one of the CDC guy. Somehow I suspect that Ekin read my blog. Haha… Not only me la kan. Initially, it was syafiah who tell me that she suspect ekin have been reading my blog. But I keep on telling her that Ekin do not have my blog website. I think now I believe her. Ekin is being so sarcastic when he chats with me calling me lame. Haha.. When I ask him what he mean by that he ask me if I don know what is lame? Lame mean boring. His explanation is so.. I just laugh it off. I know the word beb do not exist in his dictionary. But he uses the word “beb” in his blog. Is it coincidence? Only he knows himself. Somehow when I see him now, it is not him. He trying so hard being other people that at times I find it…… Ok won’t elaborate more…

LAME will be away on reservist to TAIWAN for 2 weeks!!! Damn… I will be super bored at home… No late night buddies to chat with.. Ouh, did I tell you guys that he had a crush on my SISTER??? Haha.. I keep on disturbing him and calling him brother in law.. Hehe..

LAME fetch me from CDC today, again without me knowing. I chat with him during break time. Thank for the drink awk..The instructor talk to him about me.. Giving him tips on how I can improve myself. Haaa.. funny la kan.. Instead of telling me, he tells LAME and asks LAME to tell me instead. I’m so tired today. LAME friend wanted to meet us but nah, I already reach under my block so da malas lor..

GoodNight...

2008-09-14T19:37:00.003+08:00

There is nothing much to blogged. LAME ask me out to Geylang Bazaar tonight but I turn him down. It so crowded and i hate crowded places to the max. I dress my sister up and look at her... She so mentel la kan. Haha.. She just knows how to strike a pose. Superb...

2008-09-13T00:00:00.001+08:00

The weekend is here!!!!

Happy giler.. haha..

Saturday will be home baking.

And I will spend the rest of my weekends sleeping!!!

I need that badly.
Been sleeping at 2am or later on weekdays..

Penat Giler..

IM ENJOYING MY SINGLEHOOD so much that I might remain this way!!

2008-09-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

Amalina is super duper happy!!! I pass my pract 2 at last.. Phew~

Alhamdulilah.. LAME surprise me at CDC today.. Damn him... hehe.. I was shock to see him during my break. He was standing looking at me smile and smile.. Ingat sape la smile2 at me. Very shocking because he message me that he going terawih (he did went but do the min rakaat only.. So i guess he's not lying la ekh)

One of the guys there happens to be my ex mengaji friend. He is having his pract 2 jugak.

LAME send me home.. And this is for the first time i ride his bike.. His bike damn tinggi lor.. It the scrambler and i’m so paiseh because I have difficulty getting down. Damn.. And under the block ade mats motor.. I’m sure they laugh at me. Haha.. ok im so tired and nw chatting with LAME and HAFIZ...

HAFIZ nephew is so CUTE!!!!

Will update again...

2008-09-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

Today, Monday blues for me??? I get so pissed of by this one Chinese lady. Kiasu Singaporean. I was standing in front of a lady waiting to get down from bus. The Kiasu lady was so kiasu that she wants to tap out first instead of letting me tap. I’m in front of her, which means that even if she tap first, she still have to wait for me to tap then she can get down from the bus… Aiyo!!! What the different by letting me tap out first.. So kiasu…

Amazingly at work I’m not sleepy at all. Usually, I will sleep during lunch hour.. Today, I could not even close my eyes. Call my aunts and have a short chat with her. It kinda funny because I only have a couple of hours of sleep the night before.. Hmmm… I’m kinda strong ya??

Yesterday I was so tired that after break fast, I chat with lame for ½ then he need to go off to send his bike and off I went to sleep with my lappie on. So friends, I’m sorry if I did not reply you people because I was already asleep and my sister is playing with my lappie with the msn still log on. I was waken up by my hp. PADI sms me!!! Haha.. It has been awhile since he sms me.

Then saw Lame online and I chat with him until 3 am.. Eyes cannot take it already. Wake up at 4.30 for sahur and off to sleep again.

Tomorrow I have to wake up super early. Attending course at Bukit Merah… Damn far la kan.. I never been there before and tomorrow I need to take PUBLIC to Bukit Merah!!! Hopefully I won’t get lost. Pray for my safety okie..

Ouh ya chatting msn with LAME now and sms with Hafiz Apek.. My first EX.. haha.. Nina... See what you have done!!!

2008-09-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

Friday after break fast, went over to cousin house. She was giving away some of her clothes. I went over just to buat sibuk cuz I can never fit into their clothes. It is too big for me. I have a bite size body, remember?

Reach home around midnight. Chat with Lame till sahur time. After sahur, i say my good night and off I went to sleep. Mum wake me up at 11 plus for shopping!!! Damn..

Dad was working and we have to take the public transport. I hate taking public!!!

We went Bugis. I brought raya shoe from Charles and Keith and a flowery clip from Accessories. Mum brought raya shoe from Charles and Keith, bag from CHOMEL. My sister brought denim hot pants and flowery blouse from FOX and handbag from Accessories. She shops more than me!!!

Then, we went Arab St to buy food for buke. Saw a few Line Maint guys still in their uniform.

Damn.. Did not get to eat my Hajah Maimunah sibut sedut and ayam pangang..
Nw i feel like having ayam percik and deng2.. Yummy yummy.

I’m chatting with LAME now. GF not online.. So sad!!!
Today I have to come for OT. AMALINA is working on SUNDAY during fasting month!!! And I’m still wide awak!!

2008-09-05T01:05:00.003+08:00

Amalina, dont u hate me
For my nonsense
I juz cant keep my eyes off you

I dont care if your short and small
Coz it juz dont matter at all
Wont you feel the same way as i do

*Amalina...shes the kind of gal
Allthe guys would...ever dream of
Ohh..Amalin Cant you see...

I would take u to see the sunset
Let u eat a dozen of chocolates..
Dont u stop me from wat i do...

* repeat chorus..
thank you.

A song written and sung by a friend of mine. It a slow punk rock song. After i told him about me being small and he read my msn nick. Thank you awk.. Really nice of you.. If i rajin, i will load the song.. Nt nw.. This week is my lazy week..
I wanna play the drum too!!!! Teach me okie.. hehe :P

2008-09-02T23:20:00.006+08:00

2008-08-30T22:03:00.001+08:00

I can’t help if but recently i’m kinda active with my tagged. I would say, i’m bored to death lor.. I’m not trying to bragged or what but everyday I would received messages and friends request.. Funny funny messages.. One of the girl send me a msg and ask if i wanna be a female escort.. Damn... The money is so tempting la kan...

‘Hi Babe... You are looking great..you got the looks..you are just right for what we looking for..I'm not sure are you willing to spend some time to do what i am doing and after that pamper yourself with all the stuff you wanted to get...branded bags...so on...but only if you willing....I'm sure you can fulfill what i just mentioned...easily making like $200 an hour...or if you are hard working...you can also make like 5k a mth...so...if you want to know more or interested...you can add me in MSN to find out.. Why not give it a try..afterall you can quit anytime if you dont like it..no contract or anything the you need to sign.... Love J’

Ok i reply to JEAN.. What i reply is a hush hush....

Scary hot looking guy... send me this message,
“thanks for adding me as u r friends.. you pretty one... what next... lets get real in life...I like u r profile found it interesting ... how to be friends... what next... luv Ace...

2008-08-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

Today is Saturday and i’m home feeling tired and bit sick. Yesterday night, I was at home msning with someone and he suddenly ask me out.. Shock Shock. Yup went out to meet him for awhile and we lost our way at Punggol. Then late at night went Mustapha Ctr with family and cousins. After Mustapha, we ate super at Al Yassin.. Reach home at 4 plus A.M...

Wake up in the morning and off I went to grandma house. Suppose to meet cousins for an outing to Sentosa but last min I back out.. Tired la.. Reach home around 3 plus, I on my lappie and fall asleep until now.. Feeling very weak.. I hate the feeling..

Ouh ya... Congratulation YAZID for passing your Car Pract.. Now someone can drive already hor.. Lolx..

2008-08-28T20:38:00.003+08:00

Today Farhan (amerold logistic) and Kelvin (SIAEC) ask me out for a movie. I turn them both down. I’m feeling tired and lazy... Feeling feverish too... I went hangar after lunch to collect my aunt watches. Beautiful watches. Damn I just hate the makcik so much.

Working was damn tiring. I had so much work that I have stopped going lunch. I lunch in unless I run out of biscuits or bread. It is too tiring to walk out to the canteen and I could no longer go hangar to get lunch because the makcik complain to the uncle boss that the uncle drive us to hangar everyday to get lunch. So the hati busuk. Damn you.

Im drifted further and further with my one and only female colleagues, Sandhora.. Cuz of the stupid work. We were so busy that we did not even have a decent 5 min chat. Padahal we were in the same office. I been going home alone because it either me or her will have to work bit later..damn.. Miss sharing problems with her. I miss you SANDHORA.

In the late afternoon, chat with Kelvin and Jeremy online. Mean “company MSN” haha.. Miss Kelvin so much... Haiz, Tadi, I should go out with him for movie. Jeremy is Kelvin colleague. Always saw him at work but hardly talk. Then today saw Kelvin with Jeremy and I disturb Kelvin as usual.. Receive sms from Kelvin that someone wanna get to know me and ya it JEREMY.. haha.. Was asked to go online by them too.. And ya we chat till it time for me to go home..

Smsing with JEREMY now... And with KELVIN a while ago. Damn.. Is my fetish for Chinese guy coming back? Maybe the rejection I get from malay guy make me lose hope on MALAY guy..

But hey, i’m just spending my free time chatting with them. There nothing to do pun. No harm rite..

Ouh ya, receive an sms from “him”. My dream, Punggol.... It will be just a dream..... Today suppose to be the date of the appointment...

DREAM ON AMALINA *HARD PINCH*

Wake up to reality.... * hard pinch*

2008-08-26T19:29:00.002+08:00

It is obvious that I am still weak when it comes to handling my life.

I hate working for now. I hate the makcik2 at works, from the admin to the cleaner. I hate them so much because they have no respect to the younger generation. Because of the wide age gap, and they are far-far older than us, they did not respect us or our opinion but it is a must for us to respect them. I hate this kind of human being who does not show any respect. I especially hate her.

I’m sure my dear friends know whom I’m referring to. Damn her. Is it something wrong with me? I do not know why I hate her so much. The feeling of hatred is just there. When I look at her, my mood changes. She have make me cry almost everyday when I’m under her. Luckily I have the guy colleagues to cheer me up. He understands how I felt because his girlfriend gets the same treatment form that makcik too. Why must she hate us so much just because we young? Damn her..

Since primary six, my form teacher taught me this line: DO UNTO OTHERS WHAT YOU WANT OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU. I’ve been holding on to that line since than…

Damn… He tegur me yesterday!!!!!! Damn… I was shock because his friend was there… He so berani sei tegur me in front of his fends.. Hehe.. Came back smiling smiling to myself.. Unlike others, they will pretend not to know me.. hurhur.. But he tegur me.. Msg him and ya told him I was shock that he tegur me in front of his fends.. Exchanging few casual messages and off I went to sleep. Down with a fever.. Was shivering at work and ya everytime a ate food from hagar, with give me rashes.

2008-08-11T23:47:00.003+08:00

I've fallen for this bike at the moment.. which colour nicer? I prefer the cream and brown.. look very vintage..

heh

2008-08-10T21:07:00.005+08:00

National Day Celebration and GF NITE OUTING.... I wanna go CLINIC la syaf!!!!

Ouh ya.. Brought TOTO on Friday (for fun2 aje) and we miss by 1 number aje... It so near to the 8 million dollars draw sei... But it ok la since it the first time we buy and we miss only by a number.

Im too lazy to blog.. Counting to this friday for my first back packing holiday with........

2008-08-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

I super delightful today...

Ok yesterday the waiting is like shit. I force myself to sleep at 0930 hrs. First call at 1130 hrs and damn it.. It is my brother asking about licence enrolment and stuff. haiz... Off to sleep again and i received sms... Expect ekin to msg me but it PADI!!!

Hoho.. Sape tak happy kan.. Did not expect PADI msg at all... His first msg is simple, "so did you have your breakfast and lunch". "Ish mane boleh mkn spicy food. And yet your so.... so bile nak tido".... haha... It is short and meaningful... exchange a few messages and i was asked to go to slp.. :(

Ekin call me not long afterwards.. I appologies to him and ya, asked about his trip. Today i have reconnected his line and alhamdullilah, i can eat my lunch. No more bread and butter for lunch.. I can eat normal solid food for lunch.. No need to budget. Yahooo...

Here in my blog I admit that AMALINA IS A BLURR GIRL!! I thought i’m supposed to have my practical today but..... IT BESOK LA KAN!!!!!

And tomorrow i need to attend National Day rehersal at Airline House. Wonder what we are suppose to do. Me and my colleague was selected to represent our department for the National Day Celebration on Friday.. Nice nice yummy yummy food. Inshallah i'll take picture.. If we are allowed to bring in camera phone...

For now, Sweet Dreams for me... I wonder why now i feel tired easily and can hardly sleep at night.. I just feel so weak. Might be due to the lack of exercising..

1 more weeks for the PARTY!!!!! Gona party my hearts out!!! khekhekhe....

Menjadi2 ekh AMALINA..... Ops.....

Good Night everyone...

2008-08-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

Whao today at work im seriously cannot tahan sei.. Worst than yesterday.. btl2 nye mate cannot bukak.. Ni la gare2 tak tdo mlm chats with...... My GFs??? or issit.... haha... ok ok... I'm seriously feels so weak la kan today. I need to sleep early tonight since I'm having my practical tomorrow.. Ok.. pay day might be doing my hair.. but then again i guess it is still early hor to do hair.. aiya... haha.. Cannot stand my straight hair already kan... i look like C**-***... hehe... syaf u knw who im referring to la kan... Been trying to contact ekin but tk dpt.... Dunno where is he nw....

2008-08-04T16:02:00.001+08:00

Today I am on MC. Damn.

I’m down with fever and gastric flu. Damn.

Again!!!

Body feel so weak right now. I’m supposed to be asleep but the medicine is not strong enough to make me sleep. I have been awake since yesterday night. My head hurts badly but I just cannot get myself to sleep.

Doctor asks me to rest at home. But here I am blogging and exchanging messages with PADI. Somehow, messaging with him make me divert my attention to him and ya, i managed not to think of YAZID..

Yahooo...

Amalina have move on.

Inshallah.

He is leading a happy life and why must I torture myself thinking about him when he already enjoying himself.

Haha.. Grandma scold mummy because i’m down with gastric again.. See... I have grandma who thinking of me.. Who need a bf rite...

Mcm btl aje si Amelin nie.. hurhur..

I’m sure my GF is proud of me.. Kan kan kan.. *wink*

2008-08-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

I’m feeling so stupid right now. This is how the story goes.....

Last week I “lost” my hp. I assume that I lost my hp. I was bombarded with so much work and somehow I forget that my life involve HP. My hp have been quiet for last week. So it normal not o receive messages or phone cal. And with works pilling up... I just forget about my hp.

Went for lunch as per normal. Then when I realise that I lost my hp. I assume that it in my drawer as usual. And it such a bad day that my finger kene msk serumbah. At that moment i feel so lost and sad. Lost hp and my finger hurt. There is no one for me to mengadu or you know sometimes girls just need an assurance words form guys. I feel so lonely and ya, kind of sad that my life is empty.

In my mind, there 2 things that i need to do.. Look for my hp and get that serumbah out of my finger BY MYSELF!!!! How pathetic am i kan. My finger started to get swollen and i cannot bend my jari tunjuk cuz the serumbah is at the joints. I cal starhub to report on the loss of my mobile phone. And i admit it my fault. I think i gave Ekin hp number instead. His number and my is very very close. Different by 1 digit aje. I call to report and stuff. Then i keluarkan the serumbah from my finger and you know what!!!! My supervisor is holding on to my HP... He found it on his desk. He just keep quite because i never ask around if anyone saw my hp. I don wanna make it a big deal cuz ya, i was known as a blurr and forgetful girl.

I call starhub to reactivate my line and the operator is so selenge la kan. I say i wanna reactivate my hp number and she told me it already reactivated. I don take much notice about it la until I READ EKIN BLOG!!!!

He wrote that his old line kene cut already. I was chatting with syaf at tat time.. I was so bloody hell shock. Cal starhub to ask what happen and ya, AMALINA IS A GUNDU gal... I actually report EKIN number instead of mine. What i’m mad at myself is that it took me 1 whole week to notice it!!!! CB CB CB!!!!

Here in my blog, I would like to make a PUBLIC APPOLOGY to SAFIE (EKIN) for the inconvenience I have caused. Never is my intension to terminate your line. I’m so sorry. Amalina betul2 mintak maaf.

I managed to get his sister number. Ya, EKin is in BKK now. I hope he will reply my cal or msg when he is back. I expect his sister to scold me for the hurt i have caused her brother. Those never happen.

Thank You kak. She still replies my messages politely even after i have hurt his brother feeling. I need the sim card number to re-activate the line. I hope Ekin reply me.

For now, I can only pray that Ekin won’t get the wrong idea. I am prepared that he will not believe me because of all the inconvenience I have cause him. For now i have to pay his bill first.. 300 plus in total... I am dead broke... Dead dead broke... I really hope you pity me and call me... I seriously cannot afford to pay two bills. Your understanding is much appreciated...

GuYs aRe cReaTed by GoD tO HuRt GaLs HeArT!!!!

Haiz

Haiz

3rd dat

Gaduh lagi

Cry

Sony to iphone

Call call call pleaseeee... Crossing my finger

I have to be strong! I have to!

???

When can i have it all back?

Silly gal

The promise i make to myself

April 1st

Am i a stranger to u?

???

Nervous

I miss you so much....

Amin

Breakfast

Low, lower, lowest

Low, lower, lowest

Conversation i had wit my aunt last sat

Kene panggil whine?

.....

Am i not understanding?

:(

Jogging?

$$$$

Haiz

Bayar! Bayar! Bayar!

Are you ok dear???

?????

Speechless

Cry baby

:)

2.50 morning

From diary to blog

Test post frm iphone

**27 October**

27 October