I’m very happy to be with Aliim. I love him a lot. But I never thought that having a bf who used to have a mixed blood gf, who used to love a girl and waited patiently for her can make me feels so low. I love my bf a lot. But at the same time, I have no confident in myself. I lost the confident after I knew that his ex gfs is all pretty and from mixed blood, The fact that he actually waited so long for a girl he love and instead of being together with her, it is me he end up with. I love him too much to let him go.

I do not know what wrong with me today. I’m sorry. Kindly bear with me.. To be frank, this stuff comes and goes. I think it normal bahx? There is so many question that I want to ask him but I do not know how to ask him. I’m scared he will think that I’m being childish and paranoid. I'm scared if i ask the wrong question he will be mad at me.

I love him and my love for him grows with each days. I know I don’t have the looks, brains but I hope I’ve moved him with my sincerity in loving him. I love him with sincerity without asking anything in return.

We have managed to overcome the first 6 crucial months of our relationship. We went through a lot of argument and alhamdulilah, we never let the argument be more than 24 hrs. Either one of us will give in. I am proud of my bf. He takes good care of me and always there for me. I’m confident these paranoid tingy will go off soon. Inshallah.

IM HAPPY!!