I’m still not in talking terms with daddy and mummy. I’m too hurt to talk to them. I’m hurt with their words… Why can’t my parents be fair to us? Why must there be favouritism? Am I so bad in their eyes? I did not get myself into trouble with the law. I did not trouble them financially. I did not. In fact, I did help them financially. But why must they tell relative that I did not help them? I help them pay for my brother school fees. I did help even though it not much. I don’t earn much, how can they compare me with my cousins or their friends’ kids? It is very unfair to me.

At least I work after my N level and O level. I did not laze around at home and ask them for money to club. I did not!!! In fact I have not even been to a club before!! And yet they can still complain about me. In their eyes, I’m just a useless girl, who did not contribute anything to the family…

I’m disappointed with my family. Luckily I still have Aliim’s. Without him, I will be lonely. He has been guiding me and I cannot afford to be without him. I find happiness in him.

I have been trying my best to shed some kilos. I gain 5kg!!! :(

I skip lunch and just have breakfast and dinner. But I realise that by dieting, it affect my mood. I tend to be lots lots more sensitive. I hate the dieting. I love to eat but I hate exercising. How How How???

I need a hug!!!

I need Aliim to hug me and go on a deep deep sleep.

IM HAPPY!!