They are the one who is there for me during my difficult time. Thanks guys.. U people is the best GIRLDFRIENDS.....

It has been so long since I feel so sick. I feel so weak and the cuace tempted me to take leave. It is so nice to sleep. I think I’m addicted to redbull. I try not to drink redbull for a week and my body feels very lethargic. After a can of redbull in the morning, it feels much better. My system da rosak da… I need a can of redbull everyday and on days i’m having my pract, i will have 2 cans. One can in the morning and 1 can after work for the energy.

Had my pract today. Thanks goodness there this pract. Cuz mummy been asking me if I have stop going out with Yazid. Now, I book my pract on weekdays after work and every time I’m having my pract I will wear exercise pants to work and bring helmet and my shoe bag. Mummy will ask me if I meeting Yazid. I would just say yes and say we going jogging. Cuz she know Yazid is into exercise. Today practs suck. I was at gear 3 and damn it la kan.. I flung off onto the curb cuz of this guy who give a sudden brake!! Awk I’m sorry to use your name. I still do not know how to break the news to my parents yet. I take back my lesson to fill up my time. If not I will have to go out aimlessly during Yazid off day. With this pract at least I “still” meet him once a week. It may be lame. But I still dunno how to tell my parents. I have hid this stuff from them for 1 mths plus. Not bad hor.. will see how far this thing can go.

Read Safie blog the other day. Dunno mcm mane boleh tergerak hati to read. Ok I am mad at what he wrote.Thinking back, what my aunts say is true. “You have been together with him for 3yrs and to be frens it’s not easy… How can you call another boy in his presence, of course he will feel jealous….you must remember that you have be in a steady relationship with him. So for him to forget you is not easy. You should give him a chance if he really changed for the better but since your dad dun like him it’s good you all still be frens. But for him to continue this friendship is not easy. It’s OK, you must continue with your life and give him his life… The way he wrote in his blog memang boleh sakitkan hati…I’ve been there and done that so I understand how you feel… You are 21 gal so must be strong and mature…a better person will come to your life if you are patient and perseverance….Insya Allah. We pray for the best!!” Email from aunt Fidah.

Thanks auntie for the mail. I do feel better. Somehow this year is a bad year for me. In this tiny heart of mine I do pray that the better guy will be YAZID. But you know, this world is never fair. You will always end up with the person who you don even think off. I leave everything to fate.