I miss him. It been 4 days since we last met. Ya miss miss him. Sometime i wish i don miss him this much. What if history repeats itself again? Seriously i'm very tired of thinking if it will happen again. I'm just tired and scared of all of this. I went through alot and i really hope that he understand the heart pains, the mental pains that i went through. It is a nightmare. I don want to go throught it again. Im scared.

Weekends home alone.. Feel so bored to death....