Yohooo… Today is Thursday!!! Which mean tomorrow is FRIDAY la gundoo. Hoho. And it meant the weekend is coming!!! And you guys know what?? They’re going to have lots of sales going on during the weekends. Charles and Keith, Levi’s, billabong, quicksilver and more!!! OMG!! There goes my saving sei. Hoho…

Wednesday was boring day for me. The times pass so slows sei beb. Breakfast had epok2 with coffee. Lunch, I had mixed fruits and dinner I had rice with daging msk ketchup. I have been eating rice for dinner for the past 2 days. So motivated to put on weight. Or maybe sunshine called me on Wednesday morning that where my big appetite come from?

I have been talking to Sunshine’s since last week. Alhamdulilah. He treats me better when we are friends now. He started to contact me back on 31 March. I was so shocked when he first called me. It took me a while to answer the phone just to make sure that I’m not dreaming. That night I pray maghrib and doakan for his well being since he was going for his reservist and hope that everything went on smoothly for him and he wont get sick and the reservist will calm his mind down. Sunshine’s may look tough but he actually soft tau. I somehow sense that he is worried about the reservist. Praying and doakan him is little gesture that I can do for him. Cuz I know he do not want to talk with me. So when he called me, Amalina, btl2 shock la. Kuase Allah. I’m so speechless. After so long I never pray, that day Amalina tergerak hati to pray and Allah reward me by sunshine’s calling me that night. Alhamdulilah. Cuz I really miss him la kan. He went through a lot in his life and I think he ought to be rewarded. Ya allah, please lessen his burden. On Wednesday, I was bored at work and looking at my calendar thinking about what he is doing when my hp peeps peeps. It Sunshine’s la kan!!! Mcm tau2 aje I’m thinking about him. I was smilling from ear to ear sei. You see, I have a calendar in my office and in the calendar have all the happy and sad occasion that took plc between me and him, and his off day. I wrote down when I meet him and where I go and when he starts to be in his dreamland and all. So the calendar really mean a lot for me. Even when he stop and start calling me I jot it down. Am I crazy?? Ya, I’m crazy over him. Haha.

For now I’m happy as the way it is. Sunshine’s treat me better when we are abnormal friends then during our relationship days. At least he shares his problems and open up to me. I can give people nasihat but me myself is in a bad shape. Ape dah.

Ekin ask me out this SUNDAY!! I been chatting with him in msn and exchanging sms as a friend. No more than that. Did I give him the wrong impression?

Alhumdulilha I have my family, Babes, and still have Sunshine’s around me. Thanks Nina and Syaf for spending time with me, listening to my problems and being there for me. I really appreciate it. I’m so glad that out friendship last this long. We have been friends since secondary and you people know me best. The real AMALINA. Sunshine’s is there to chat with me at night. At least I don feel lonely. At time I do feel scared. What happen if he chooses to stop calling me? He has found a new gal to chat with? I’ll be back to square one. Cuz one day, after he find the right girl, he wont be calling me everyday la kan. Don tells me his new girl will let him chat with me again. If I’m that gal pun I won let sei. To let my bf chat with a gal who have feeling for him!! That is asking for problems. I can understand that. Am I prepared for that life?

Hi Nina, ask yusoff out on a date la. Let the 4-besttie friends have a good sing a song time. Miss his craziness and abg2ness la.. We can go for sing a song or sheesha with cards!!! Kan best!!!

P/S: He will end his reservist tomorrow. 1 more day to go. Am I happy or scared? Happy cuz he will get to eat proper meal and get to meet him. Haha. I’m scared he will be back to square one, back to his fantasy dreamland. I must be prepared for that. Hopefully no la kan. It really hurts me to see him like that sei. Isn’t my life like a roller coaster? Those who have been following my life will know what I mean. I just hate the roller coaster days. The feeling is very bad that sometime, I feel like sleeping and not waking up. Seeing the one you care for and like from far is very painful. Where is the strong AMALINA???


Came back from lunch, there a surprise for me. Laura Mercier translucent pressed setting powder wrapped with a paper written, especially for you. From your secret admire. Haha. It was on my table. Hmmm… My colleague told me not to pakai the powder cuz we never know what they add in there. OMG… Throw it away??

IM HAPPY!!