Today I am early for work. Reach Airport at 0745am!!! C how early I am. Work was bored. They’re too many works for me until I did not know which one to start with. No meeting and Sandhora were on leave today. Boring to the MAX!!! Breakfast had coffee with biscuits. Lunch Mr Hansem brought me Nasi Brayni from hanger. Thanks beb. I just told him yesterday that it have been so long since I last had food from there.


Yummy yummy. I finished till the last grain tau. After my lunch I took a nap. Sleepy sei to the MAX tau!!! That will be my lunch and dinner because my mummy never cooks today! How to put on weight?

He saw my biscuit and kinda pissed off with me. Well, you teach me to be stubborn okie.

I was doing my business when I terpandang my wrist. OMG!!! My wrist looks so skinny. So cacat. When I think back, what Mr Hansem said to me is true. I’m too skinny. I agree with him reluctantly.

Maybe my cheek is fleshy that makes me looks and think that I’m fat. Looking at my wrist and ribs, it too small la, too boney. It looks like a secondary school kids. I may want to look young, but after I started working, I realize that how young do I want to look? I’m already working. It is not a matter of how you look, but how you portray yourself that matters most.

Managed to see him now and then at work. Just feel like grabbing him and hug him. I needs his hug and feel secured again. Wonder when will be our next meeting.

Amalina miss Mr Hansem

Where will this friendship bring us?
I do feel paranoid at times when he did not call or message me.
But I keep on telling myself, I cannot expect too much from him.
From the start, I’m the willing one.
At times, I’m scared if he will vanish into thin air again.
It is really difficult for me to cope if he keeps on hilangkan diri now and then.
There is only until a certain limits that I can do to win his heart.
What I believe is what ever I do for him is with hati yg ikhlas.
I just take one step at a times event though at times I can’t wait to know where our special friendship will lead us to.

IM HAPPY!!