Feel so bored and lonely. What will happen to me in 5 years down the road? Will I still be waiting for HIM? Or will I get married already and have a wonderful family? I’m only 21. Why am I thinking of all this? Until I get married, my mind won’t stop thinking who will be my husband. Isn’t it scary? I mean, being single now, I still do not know who will be my husband. Will he be someone who I know? Someone who I can chat with? I don need a rich or good looking husband like…. Hmmm, Hans Issac? I just need a husband that is not so skinny so I can manje2 and hug2 him, funny, adventurous so my life won’t be boring, serious at times, and someone who I can talk with. Communication is very important in a relationship. When you are old, you won’t be pretty or handsome anymore. But communicate will never fade or change. That is very important if you want to stay with your partner until old age. And I want to have baby!!! Haha.. I see babies picture, geram sei… Even though I’m scared of giving birth, I love babies. They are cute, adorable and so naïve. Children spice up marriage life. Marriage won’t be complete without children. Enough Amalina. Stop dreaming. Who want to get married with you? You are so stupid. Do not know how to cook. Look so childish. Guys will run away from you. Am I that not laku??

PS: Sunshine’s came back yesterday and he is sick. Kecian kan. If only I know how to cook and have license, I would have cook him a chicken porridge and send it to his house and surprise him. Too bad, I know none of them. He still has to book in today. Yahoo. Countdown ends already. Why am I happy ekh? I still like him? Hmmm that is the question. Yes I still like him. Sometime I wish we would end up together. Tapi jodoh is in Allah hand. I don dare to say anything. Even if I like him, and he doesn’t like me, it won’t happen kan? What is so special about him that I cannot forget him ekh? Until now, I still wonder what so special about him that I still cannot forget him. I think if other gals, long long ago, She already left him… Haha… That is why I say love is blind. Even after what he did to me, I still like him and pray that we will be together again. Is this one sided thinking on my part?

IM HAPPY!!