Yohooo... Tomorrow is good friday.. Mr Sunshine's is on Night shift so..... haha.. i dunno... meeting or no meeting?? i dunno la ekh... Well fyqa, you dunno that i'm attached?? am i attached?? I'm used to think that i'm attached but now, i don dare to even think of my future with him... but he is my bf and i love love love him!!! I just hope everthing will be just fine between us.. The shock is still there... If he need time to forget his ex totally, i think me too need time to get over the shit experience... We going on fine for the moment.. Ya very fine.. But i do admit at time, i asked myself if his ex can move on with her life with a new guy, why cant he do the same thing too... I knw 9 years of being with her, he have difficulty loving a new gal.. But, what make him text me those words??? Sometime things is better left unspoken... I never bring the subject of the shits again after that day.. Because i want to move on and don wanna think of the shit experience.. It too shitty that i was left with a blank mind, speechless and emotionally hurts.. I feel so hopeless that night.. The tears just flow even though i force myself to be strong.. I knw our relationship is still young and there bond to be cuts... At the same time, i glad that he tell me the truth.. At least i knw what is in his heart. For now, i knw i don own his hearts. I know that he have to get used to being with me because he used to have a gf that is matured, tall and pretty then suddenly he is with a small little gal... I do admits at times i tend to be childish but i am adorable... isnt me adorable??? tak malu la emilyn nie.. hehe.. Maybe i was pampered too much by people around me that i tend to forget im an adult now.. Since im the one who choose to be with him, i have to be emotionally prepared to faced all these with him.. He need me to moved on with life and i believe if i am ikhlas he will be moved by my keikhlasan... Maybe this is my balasan for hurting a guy who love me.. But i do not regret cuz i know me and ekin is no way can be together and i'm glad that in my state of mess, sunshine's pop up in my life... I am blessed to have him.. Sunshine's i just hope that from now on, you don keep anything from me and let us face the future problems together... I'll pray that you can move on with your life... And babes, please on our future outing don ask me what have happened... I just wanna move on with him... I don wanna remember the shits incidents.. And i hope Allah will blessed me with good health, a clean and calm mind cuz i know there more dugaan to come especially when my sunshine's is in a confused state of mind.. One day he is okie and the next day he will be in his confuse mind... I need strength to go thru this stage of my life... Is this what i have to face since im an adult?? I dunno... Im confused too... :o(

Today at work is relaxing day for me.. Tomorrow is public holiday so im in holiday mood... I do try to put myself in holiday mood.. All not important jobs can wait till MONDAY!!! Morning did my normal admin stuff for the guys.. At 3 attend a talk on safety.. An interesting talks i would say... after the talks went for a meeting... Meeting at 1630!!!! What the hell... It the time im busy packing up for home sei... ade2 aje si boss nie tau... Boring Boring!!! Everyday meeting and he talks about nonsense stuff that i don even knw... I have no technical knowledge u knw!!! All the nonsense tools and pricing and now i need to learn hw to write minutes of meeting cuz it gona be my new job scope!!! I did study that in school but i hate that so much... people talking, arguing and i need to take notes of all these nonsense stuff... Im totally overload with my jobs already lor... more pimples will be popping out soon

Mr Sunshine's is on mc today!!! yuhooo, get to meet him later and tmr is public holiday so it mean i get to go back late!! im so duper happy...!!!

IM HAPPY!!