Monday blues.... Boring Monday... Lots of work today and yes, I kene tegur again for my dressing... My colleague told me that "big people" already say about my dressing. They say that my dressing is not matured enuf for office job and too low cuts... Ouh my god!!! Today I was wearing tangan panjang with a shawl and a smart pants lor and heels... and they say it a t-shirt material.... If I were to meet clients or what, then I can wear a nice2 cloth lor. Who want to waste money buys office wear?? So expensive hor... I rather wear a uniform tau... Bingit sei...

Mummy cal me while im at work today... So sedih by her answer.. She called me to tell me that my hp bills have arrived and that grandma called her to ask on me...

Hp bill story...

mum: ur hp bills have arrived. urs is cheap but ekin's is expensive..
me: His is more?? Sape sei dier cal ngan msg??
mum: ekh, cal matair dier la... sape lagi...
me: ouh... (my mum was so sarcastic lor)
mum: today mkn rumah?
me: balik tapi tak mkn.
mum: tak jumpe kwn ko? (referring to sunshine's)
me: tak
mum: asal?
me: He reservist.
mum: reservist and tak boleh jumpe? dulu everyday jumpe.. skarang da tak...
me: We won’t be meeting for the moment.
mum: asal?
me: cuz he still can’t forget his ex and he say don want to hurt me.
mum: kan matair lame dier da tunang ( I told mum about her)
me: yes, tapi dier dgn matair lame dier 9 tahun, so dier masih tak dpt lupekan lor...
mum: asal dier mcm gitu ekh? yg da pergi tu pergi la.. yg nk ingatkan dier buat ape.. Pompan tu da happy2 dgn tunang dier, yg kwn ko nk sedih2 buat ape... tak baik kacau tunang org..
me: entah la..
mum: nenek ko cal tanye asal ko muke sedih aje. tak gantung taliphone lagi..
me: then u told her?
mum: ye la.. mane boleh tipu dier... dier tgk muke ko lain mcm dier da tau..

(at this pt, I really regret visiting my grandma last Saturday. I can sense something amiss.. Cuz she is the one who look after me when im small.. there nothing I can hide from her...)
me: ouh...
mum: call her.. She risau
me:ok...


omg!!! I was like what do all these people have to ask me? im trying to move on and they keep on asking me.. I knw my parents do like sunshine.. but well, he don like me and there nothing I can do ibu......

U won’t believe me but grandma called me during my lunch time... Omg!!!! seriously these adults is driving me nuts... (as I was blogging my mum ask who I msn with.. terpakse bohong sunat say it sunshine's) aiyo...

my conversation with grandma

grandma: da mkn tgh hari?
me: da
grandma: mkn ape?
me: mee soto. ( bohong sunat lagi... haha... I can’t tell her that I skip lunch la kan)
grandma: ko dgn kwn ko tu mcm mane?
me: mcm gitu la.. kwn aje..

grandma: abeh nenek tgk tak gantung taliphone hari sabtu tu. muke ko pun nampak susah hati aje. asal?
me: takde pape la.. biase aje.. dier busy sebab tu tak cal sgt...
grandma: ko jgn tipu nenek.. walaupun nenek duduk rumah, aku tahu tau ape jadi kat luar..

(omg!!! what she trying to say nie??)
me acting blur..
grandma: kwn ko tu da kawin ekh? ko jgn keluar dgn laki org... tak baik...

alamak my grandma look down on me sei...
me: tak la nek... belum kawin lagi.. bujang trangtangtang..
grandma: abeh asal dier tinggal kan kau?
me: sebab dier masih belum boleh lupe kan matair lame die.. matair lame dier da jadi tunang org.. so dier sedih...
grandma: bodoh ekh dier... Matair dier da tunang sudah la... Dier pun nk bersedih aje? sampai bile nk bersedih... Umur da lanjut.. Kalau asyik sedih aje sampai tua la tak kawin2... Ko pergi la berbual dgn dier... Dier perlukan tpt untuk berbual.. Ko jgn nk keras hati..
me: mcm mane nk berbual dgn dier kalau dier tk nk berbual dgn org... da la nek.. kalau ade jodoh tak ke mane...
grandma.. Ye la... tapi aku tgk ko diam aje... aku yg risau..
me: org takde ape2 la..
grandma: ok la.. nanti kalau da ok dgn dier bilang nenek.. Kau pegi berbual dgn dier kalau kau btl2 suke kan dier.. Kalau ko malu, biar nenek berbual dgn dier...
me: ok.. bye..

omg!!! c hw my grandma is... if my grandma talk to sunshine's, haiz, sunshines gona get mad at me lor.... hw am I suppose to forget him when grandma and mum's keep on asking about him even though I’ve told them that me and sunshine's is fends but not more close fends... Im tired of these already...

okie... yesterday was bored so I chat with syaf... and went friendster hogging... Went to sunshine's ex gf friendster and her tunang friendster... I realise that what she wrote in her friendster is referring to sunshine's...

A man of Action, one who NEVER hesitates. A man of Courage. Someone who knows how 2 FIGHT before he lets go. someone who speaks from his heart when he says I'll be with U. who understands his words wen he says he'll answer ur thousand questions. Someone who matches his TALK w/ deeds of ACTION. Someone who creates true efforts out of ordinary situation. Someone who puts LOVE as an ACTION & not a mere description..

Eventhought I know sunshine's not that long, but I think I’ve known him long enuf to understand why she wrote all tat.. How can I hate her?? She is not a bitch but someone looking forward for her future.. And we can’t blame sunshine's too.. Sunshine’s just wanted to make sure he totally prepared to be a husband.. And she on the other hand don feel secured cuz their relationship is only based on bf gf not ikatan tunang.. So there no right and wrong here.. She on the other hand is a strong gal.. move on with life and she have found someone who she truly love.. Her tunang is so swit lor... from his friendster I understand that he admire her since childhood and when he turn 24 he express his love to her... Swit kan.. Hw and she not melt kan... every gal would melt... that is his plus point.. even though he is not good looking, I think her tunang have a kind heart and truly love her. Sunshine's is loosing cuz he take things too light thinking that she will always be his... that an ego point of view... She have moved on and sunshine's is still searching for the reason y she leave him... OMG!!! think lor...

i miss him, again....