Today suppose to watch movie with his good buddies and gf.. But in the end cancel... Me and Mr Sunshine's carry on with the plan thought... We watch movie followed by dinner at still rd there.. First time i ate at that shop eventhough i pass by that plc often... The food is not bad... At least better then yesterday food...
Today, i dunno what got into me... Im like in a daze... What im thinking of??? To be frank it like in a mess.. Im thinking of so many stuff at the same time...
Im thinking of how exactly my brother turn out that way... Cuz i admit my brother is a good, nice and responsible guy.. Maybe it my fault that he become like tat.. I'll listen to Mr Sunshine's advice... To talk to him, advice him instead of hina or look down on him... I have fail to be a good sister.. I have fail to show him the right path... I hope now is not too late to tell him that i care for him.. He is my only brother after all.. Even if other people look down on him, even if other people give up on him, as his elder sister i should advice and encourage him cuz i knw he is a bright guy...
As i was eating my dinner, i dunno la y... I kind of stare into plc and hmmmm look at Mr Sunshine's face?? Hopefully he don notice tat la... Paiseh sei.. haha... I jus feel fortunate that i get to kwn him.. In this short period that i have knw him, i would say he is a nice guy who don look down on people and give fair advice... Seriously i really really feel blessed that Allah send him to me... During that time, I was at lost with my problem with Ekin..I know many people think tat Ekin is the right one for me... But hey!!! I knw myself better okie... I knw my brother is mad that i broke off with ekin... But i did it for my own good. Im turning 21 next mth and i've to think of my future... And i don c my future with ekin... Inshallh, i doa that my brother can accept the fact that me and ekin is over and im with a better guy...
Okie back to Mr Sunshine's.... I feel that he came to my life at he right timing... I dunno hw to put it into words... The feeling is hmmmm.... blessed, fortunate, alhamdulilah, gosh..... I dunno... Im jus feel happy with him... Whenever i look at him, i alway feel like i will be the most fortunate gal if this guy infront of me will be mine forever... I dunno... The feeling is..... Emilyn tak tau la how to put it.... I wil alway pray that Allah wont give us a cubaan that is too mencabar...
I will have to wait for one more month for him to have his weekends off again... Gosh... Gona gona miss him... Tomorrow he will be on morning shift followed by soccer training.. Mean no meeting.. Tuesday he will be on afternoon shift... Afternoon shift is definately cannot meet cuz i'll be at work... Wednesday he will be on night shift... Hmmm maybe we can meet before he go work??? *winks*
Thursday and Friday will be his off day... Wat a day to fall on tat day... *sobs* *sobs*
Saturday he will be morning shift... And pray hard there will be no soccer training on tat day and he is not tired... Then we can go on a date!!! hehe...
Ops... plz don be selfish emilyn... okie... i already promise myself not to be a selfish people...
That is hmmmm new year resolution for me???
