Assalammuralaikum everyone... i would like to emphasis here that this post will be in a mix of English and Malay. A new year, a new life and hopefully a new ways of happiness. My friends must be wondering why I change my blog. To be frank with you guys, me and ekin is over. I would like to stress here that there is no 3rd party involved. Ours is because of lack of love, trust and some personal problems that only closed ones know. It took me 3 months to think carefully. I did not make the decision over night. I am confident that I have made the right decision after consulting my friends, my aunts and my cousins.
Thank you so much for giving me a true advice.I end my relationship of 1 yr and 11 mths wit ekin after we know each other for 3 yrs plus last week. My mind is too distraught to blogged. It not ekin fault. Ekin is a nice and hardworking guy... It because of his past mistake and the family he is born into that give him the disadvantage of becoming a good husband. To marry a guy, u need to like the family too because you need family in difficulty times. I wont say anything bout his family except tat his and my family is like langit and bumi. It so different..I know some may thought that why I do not want to end my relationship earlier with him after knowing that the family background is so different. I would like to stress here that i only know the true colour late last year and can u imagine a fend whom I lost contact for 5 yrs suddenly contact me and ask if ekin is my bf cuz she is a fend to ekin ex and she know about ekin past. I admit he has a bad history but never once i ask him cuz i thought it is not important. That is my mistake. After putting my true heart and soul into loving him, i breakup with him.
After all the future planning it still come to e end. I wonder hw my future life gona b. Im scared to get the wrong guy again. For now, I am sure 100% that I don love him anymore.Maybe i'm born in a family that is strict and every single details is important.
Alhamdulilah, ibu understand my situation. She is a great mum. She understand my feeling. I should have listen to her not to get seriously involved in a relationship wit ekin cuz im the one who is hurt in the end. Even thought it is me who end it, emilyn betul2 sedih tat it have to end these way. But emilyn bersyukur tat allah show me the right path.
Emilyn selalu berdoa supaye emilyn dapat suami yg penyayang and tahu membimbing keluarga. Cuz emilyn sendiri ugame tak la begitu kuat. I regret what i have done before and friends, before u get involve in a relationship, please check the family background too unless you don mind a hanyut in law.
My life now is fine. Enjoying very single moment of it. Alhamdulilah, god met me wit MR Sunshine’s. I called him mr sunshine cuz he is like a light that give me hope to carry on with life. I can feel his sincerity and i enjoy is companion. And from what i can see, he is a nice guy.. I always pray to allah to show me the right path. Cuz i knw i am someone who is easily influence... My ibu knw that i have been contacting wit MR Sunshine’s. Emilyn jus cannot lie to ibu cuz ibulah tempat emilyn mengadu and she really understand me. Ayah have been helpful by not asking me too many question..
Alhamdulilah ekin can accept tat we no longer together even though tat he wont stop messaging me everyday. I know he need time to face the truth. I play my part by not replying his msg or he will get the wrong idea.Thanks auntie fidah, for believing in me. Thanks for all the advice given cuz u know my family and me better. You know that me and ekin will never make it and u tell me. And this time I listen to you, cuz I know you have my interest at heart. Thanks for praying that I will find a better guy wit a better family soon.I’m jus sad that my aim to get married b4 25 have to be put off cuz I’m single now. hehe...
Thank You ayah and ibu for being an understanding parents. Ayah, your daughter is a grown up gal now. She listen to you. My dad has been asking me to think of my future and if ekin is the one for me. Because of that conversation wit my dad that I know he too don think ekin is the one. Parents really can read ur mind...
To ekin, i hope tat you will get on with life and find a girl who truly love you and can accept you for who you are cuz i admit that is my witness. I always ask you to change for a better guy instead of accepting you. Tapi percaye la, emilyn jus wanna you to be a good guy. Sampai bile nk hidup dalam kehidupan happy aje. Emilyn bersyukur emilyn dpt change ekin to a better guy. A guy who pray, stop partying and stop mixing wit ur "group of friends". Even after we broke off, Emiyln harap ekin tak pulang ke jalan yg lame. It took you so much effort to be a better guy, don because of me u return to ur old life. Emily doakan ekin akan dpt pasangan hidup yg lebih sempurna daripada emilyn. Halal kan mkn minum emilyn.
It maybe a kinda dramatic. But believe me, it truly come from my heart. After this experience it doesn’t put me off having a relationship cuz I knw allah make every of the insan berpasangan. And kite harus berusaha mencari pasangan hidup kite. Friends, hurt ones doesn’t mean u will get hurts always. My colleague say im like a loss gal now, but hey… Im not.. I am a strong gal and I have forget EKIN…
IM HAPPY!!
