It have been sometime since i last talk about my relationship....
I guess there nothing much to talk...
There only little quarrel..
But yesterday, i dunno what got into him...
He seem like a different guy...
We quarrel over transport...
Isn't it lame....??
There no straight bus from tamp to arab street so i suggest taking MRT...
But he so degil don wan take MRT..
In the end naik bus juge...
I gave way to him..
took bus to Tamp Mart and change to bus nos 12...
It a new bus and the seat is so hard..
I make a remark: "you rather take this new bus then the mrt huh...."
With jus one sentence we start quarrel again..
What i can't forget is after the remark i jus saje2 put my head on his shoulder..
And knw what he did to me???
He push me away...
I feel like getting out of the bus...
But i can't move my leg..
I hold back my tears..
It proven that he hurt me so much tat the tears jus mengalir...
Even hw hard i try to stop the tears the more it come out..
I don wan to show him that i'm a soft gal...
throughout the journey he did not talk to me...
You knw how awkward it is for me to seat quiet all the way....
It really too much for me to handle...
Reach arab street i jus buat my muke selamba...
I will not talk to him till he talk to me..
I will not forgive him...
He too much...
I feel so loss at that time...
I think i jus too soft hearted...
He talk to me and try hold my hand...
The angered is still there but.... I dunno...
After i brought my stuff we suppose to go home...
But he so cerewet...
Don wan to take crowded bus...
Instead we went beach rd for breakfast..
Everythin was back to normal until on the way back home...
He did something even after i told him not to...
Even when i told him i don want
At that time i feel really sad....
I wonder if he is the guy i know one year back..
He always respect my decision..
He used to say that he not like other guy..
He wont force me to do stuff i don wan..
But what does this show??
And again when i do not wan to do what he ask me too, he push me away from him...
I feel so devastated....
Why is he like tat..
He never did that to me b4...
he walk me home...
reach my staircase i just climb up without looking at his face...
I'm really sad...
When i know that he already go off, i seat at the staircase and cry my heart out...
I msg him saying hw dissapointed i am in him...
I'm really feel sad that he not the old ekin i knw..
I wonder why the sudden change in him...
Reach home luckily the house was dark..
I took my towel and head to the toilet..
Stand under the running water and cry again...
I feel my heart shartered into pieces..
I feel so lonely that i have no one to share my problems with...
Night ekin cal me and pretend nothing happen..
I hate it ..
Hw our ralationship now???
the question keep on playing in my head...
I guess it floatin...
whith the wrong ingredient it will drop in the hell and with the right ingredient it will fly to heaven.. without anything it will keep on floating...

IM HAPPY!!