As said in my earlier post i'm not going to blog. But then jus had a bad dream. U guys must be wondering wat i'm doing at home now.... I overslept... Too sleepy i guess.. Thought jus gona miss one lesson but my stomach is giving me problem nw. Having a bad menses today... Argh... Pain like hell...

As said i just had a bad dream... I dream that i broke off with dedear.. WTF!!!! OF all dream y mus i dream of this. My first time dream of this after so long knwing him.. Wat does it mean?? It really freaking me out... I'm already 19. And i took my relationship wit him seriously. I already sick and tired of knwing guys and getting to knw em. If this relationship doesn't take off i hav to start all over again.. From searching to knowing them to getting close to em and what if it doesnt take off too?? Repeat those step again till i get married??? By the time i'll be too old to get married... This i s my first relationship that i took seriously. Maybe i turning 20 next year.. There no time for me to be playful. I'm happy and selesa with him and he pampered me till i think i spoiled now.. Hehe.. Is this age too young to fall in love?? Sometime i wonder if he happy when he is with me. I knw sometime i bit too much. He can't be himself when he is wit me. Wat i mean is tat t'm not changing him. I jus don allowed him to smoke in front of me. Am i too much? I hate the smell of smoke. I'll get headache whenever i'm close to smoker. MY house is a smoke free zone. So don say i mengada2. Last time i'm fine with the smell maybe cuz most of my fend smoke but since in ite my clique don smoke. And when i'm wit fend who smoke if can i try to stay arm length from them or ask them to smoke in another direction.

Gosh what does my dream mean?? Please don seperate us. I'm too dependent on him. And i can't lose him. Gosh.. Tears already start melilir.. haha.. I'm a cry baby.. To make it worst my brother on lovey dovey song about perpisahan.. Drats...

Dedear are u happy with me???

IM HAPPY!!