Hie... I'm back... Promised to update on Friday... But i'm just too busy... Busy wit what???? I also dunno... Even nw i feel tired to update what hav happened in my life... I feel so lost... I seem to hav lost the guy whom i love so much.... Our relationship is not shaky... We don always fight... Infact we hardly fight... But we do always quarell... Maybe i'm jus too blurr... I admit i'm slow at times till maybe he fedup wit me...

Monday night i talked to him for awhile only... Reason being he was tired.... Tuesday, we talked for less than 1/2 hrs... Then he watched his show and promised to call me back... But he never... I msg him he never reply... When i called him, no answer..... i was worried... Wat make me mad was that he reject my cal... The second time i called him he reject my call too... Then he cal me back... The reason he gave me, He fall asleep...

I was heartbroken and at the same time frustrated wit him.... Don't i mean anything to him tat he can fall asleep and don cal me???? I dunno y... To make things worst it was my first day of menses... I do admit when i'm having menses i do get emotional... I get hurt easily and my feeling tend to be more sensitive...

I don ask much... I jus wan to be loved, cared and to be pampered by my loved ones.... I don want to get scolded... In fact i hate to get scolded... I hate people to talk to me in a harsh manners... I hate people to talk to me loudly... I jus hate it...

Yesterday morning he call to woke me up... But i ignore his cal... I dunno y... i jus don feel like answering his call... I wan him to feel hw i feel wen he don answer my cal... Everytime i cal him he will ans my cal or if not he reject and cal me back... Haiz... People do change... Then around 7 plus he call me agian... And again i never answer his cal... In sch i pretend nothing happen... But in my heart i want to listen to his voice... I miss his voice... His voice is the first voice i listened to every morning and the last voice i listen to b4 i go to slp... Luckily i hav his voice in my hp... i listen to the song he sang for me... I miss those moment....

At night i chat online wit faz... If nt wrong they are nt in good terms too... well relationship is not perfect... After chatting online i talk to ekin... I try to talk normal but there a bit of kekok... I knw wen we quarrel he give in a lot to me... Maybe i'm jus too stubborn... Things started to get better until the next morning he cal to wake me up... He accused me of online... Wen i told him i'm not online he don believe... It drive me mad... I was asleep throughout the night and hw can he accused me of chatting... I was so frustrated tat i jus hung the phone... I xpect him to call me b4 he go to work.... But i never receive the cal.... I make the first move to msg him.... Those reply that he gave me really make me cry... i dunno tat i caused him so much stress... So much misery....

I'm sorry to be too demanding.... I wan u to knw tat no matter what happen i will always love you...

My soul is shattered without your arms to hold me,Like a mirror without a reflection.

IM HAPPY!!