● GuYs ArE JeRkS!!!!! HaTe U!!! @ Tuesday, October 11, 2005 ●
FeeLing ConFuse By GuYs......
Today.... Monday blues... Haiz.. Feel so weak.. Maybe not enough slp bahx.. The nite before talk to BOI... Then Farhan called me.. Talk to him for awhile and hang up the phone.. Simply tired.. Yesterday i had my TKD grading... Gosh... I'm too nervous till people start already and i'm stuck there.. I then bow to the judges and re-do my formation.. AH boi fetch me frm TKD.. Guess wat??? I make him wait for 2 1/2 hours.. Haha... Not purposely one ar.. He so stubborn mahx.. Told him not to fetch me but still wan fetch me.. For our 4 yrs of friendship, yesterday is the first time i mit him.. I don feel wierd wit him.. Mayb cuz i knw him too long bahx.. He was very straight forward in his talking.. One of the part he said tat actually me not pretty... Wow... that a sudden blow for me.. i didn't ask him to comment mahx... He said " hmm, actually ur not pretty le.. But ur sweet and cute..." Wow.. That really harsh of him.. He also comment bout FIQAH.. He said "hmm.. FYQA also not pretty la.. But there sweetness in her".. He think he so good looking ar... Comment about people only.. To be frank he not good looking.. He not the one i'm looking for.. He look like a normal guy where u can find everywhere...
Wen i talk to him on the phone, i admit i hav bit of feeling for him.. He such a nice guy.. But wen i mit him, he totally turn me off.. I regret miting him.. I respect him as a fend.. But after mitin him, i wonder if i wan to stay as a fend wit him..
First miting he already wan to touch touch me.. I was shock and turn off by his action.. I hate guys who touch gals any how one.. Nw i scared to mit him again.. Haiz.. All guys are the same.. Wen i first mit FARHAN, he also put his hand around my shoulder.. Why can't guy behave decently??? They are all jerks.. I'm started to get scared of guys.. Guys who touches gals really turn me off.. Luckily i fierce wit em both.. I learn that wit guys u mus be fierce.. If not they thought tat ur the type of gal that they can touch as they wish.. Hope that GOD is kind enough to introduce me to a guy who respect gals... i really sad by boy action.. Haiz.....
Please give me some advice friends.. I really ned ur advice.. Why all guys behave the same?
Lonely..... I'm so loNeLy... I had No BoDy... To calL mY owN...
IM HAPPY!!
